Fallen On A Broken Rose

Sunday :: Discontinued?

2006-04-02T19:51:00.000+01:00

Even though it pains me to do so, my Blog shall now be HERE for a little while. ^^.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Don't worry, Confessions will still be updated...although with the marked fall-off in the number of customers we have, it might not be around for much longer @@;;

Tell Me Lies, Tell Me Sweet Little Lies...

2006-03-28T15:54:00.000+01:00

No, nothing bad happened! I was just listening to this on my mp3 player on the way home and now it's jammed in my head :wink: hopefully it will go away before I go to work, or I'll be serving our customers with a smile and a song!

I can't understand why things are going so right at the moment. I know you have good times and bad times in your life, but my life seems to be running on a permenant high at the moment...whilst everyone else's fall down around me. I can't help being cheerful and optimistic, but I feel sometimes that I should be down in those dumps with everyone else...is that wrong? Should I be? Or should I just appreciate what I have? That's what I want to do...sorry, everyone, for being happy! But this is what I want to be!

And...I don't know what came over me today, but we were sat in English Literature and a random line that sounded really good popped into my head, so I opened my planner to write it down...next thing I know, I've written two pages of story and when I look back on them the writing style sounds very mature and unique. I didn't know I was capable of such writing - maybe I should write more by hand, then type it up! :grin: I do need to get in practise for the exam, neee...

Off to work!

~~Lostoyannaya

Sunday :: What??

2006-03-26T09:59:00.000+01:00

What do you mean, the fricken' clocks go forwards? Argh! We're not in the Second World War anymore! Die!

~~

On a totally unrelated note...

"Think of your favorite underrated film, type the name into Google and do an image search. Find the best pic and then post it in yourjournal, but don't say what the name of the movie is! Once you post the picture, it's up to your friends to figure out what the movie is from the pic you posted!"

So, here's mine. Very easy, I suppose...

Urgh. I can't believe the clocks have gone forwards. That means work will come sooner. Perhaps it also means work will finish sooner...but that's not likely to happen. ^^.

Off to update website.

~~

EDIT :: Well, it is now 8pm. The one week anniversary of the death of my old laptop. May she rest in peace. Good times, good times. -_-. Now, everybody eat pie and shut up.

~~Lostoyannaya

Harrowing Experience...

2006-03-24T15:03:00.000Z

Well, that was a most harrowing experience. On Sunday night I was sitting on my bed minding my own business, when I was called downstairs by my mother. Rushing to get there on time, I started forwards, tripped on my Laptop cable and sent it flying to the ground. Consequently it broke, and by a series of unfortunate events I have ended up with a new Laptop - the Toshiba Satelite Pro. I was initialy anxious...but wow. The sound quality is so much better, it has a 60gb hardrive and the screen - widescreen - is AMAZING! ^^. So, to all of you who missed me - cough, cough - I'm back!

~~Lostoyannaya

Sunday :: Yawn...

2006-03-12T09:38:00.000Z

Whoo. What a weird dream I had last night. Or rather, weird but interesting, in a "hey, that's weird and interesting" kind of way. -_- *Sigh* Okay, I'll admit it...I have no idea about what I'm saying. I woke up early this morning, because although my alarm clock is turned off it still makes a loud clicking noise when the hands go past the set time, and it always wakes me up. Maybe I should take the batteries out at the weekends...heh...*sweatdrop*. I also stayed up quite late talkin' to Xeroc, dd, PHJ and E of Pi on the FMV chat thing...I really have to stop doing that, heh.

On the plus side, my site is really finished (I'll be adding stories to it regularly, but apart from that...) and I'm quite pleased with the way it's turned out. Thanks to Elvenblade and Xan for the hosting and help with the HTML...^^.

Right! Homework!

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Hans Zimmer (Batman Begins)
Paradise Kiss
Fruits Basket

Thursday :: Exam Results!

2006-03-09T15:28:00.000Z

Yup. Today we got our exam results. And I am pretty damn okay with mine!

English Literature :: A
Law :: A
History :: B

Oh, today has been a good day! But it has felt very surreal. For the first time in ages I have not felt scared when going up to preform in front of people (no smutting, you lot). We did a presentation in History and I was totally fine! 'Tis tres amusant. ^^

Yesterday I found the song I had been hunting for since Year Three. Yes. Year Three. It's "The Celts" by ENYA! Oh, the memories of when life was simple and pure~~actually, I prefer the complicated life I have now. I wasn't very good at English in primary school, nor did I have the friends I have now. And the laptop. Internet. Dog. DVDs. Gosh, a lot's changed since then...-_-.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Me! (And why not?)
Hans Zimmer (Burning Secret)
Enya (The Celts, Sail Away)
THE INTERNET! Mwahahahaa...yep, I'm still not over that it's back...>.>
FMV!

Wednesday :: WIRELESS IS BACK!

2006-03-08T13:46:00.000Z

Woo! That was a frightening experience. My wireless internet got cut-off...Friday night! Yooosh...and I have felt isolated and cut off from the rest of the world ever since, XDD. (Well, until today, when it got fixed. Damn WEP encryption key...>.>). I missed everyone! *Waves* Hi Denji! Hi Bex! Hi Xan!! ^^;;

On the plus side, Damon is back at school and is looking better! *Claps hands* Kudos to you, Damon! I've been off since Monday when I had this major killer panic attack in the middle of the library and went totally schizo and ran up to the Sixth Form office...but all is fine now. I think it was because everything was piling up ontop of me and getting me down, but I have done all the stuff I need to do now and my teachers are being tres helpful! Woo hoo! *Reminds self to drop in final draft of King Lear coursework*.

And we're going to see a production of "A Woman Of No Importance" on March 30th! And we get back at 11:15pm and have double English Lit. the morning after XDD what's the bet no-one's gonna be there? High. Very high. But it shall be fun! FUN, DAMNIT! *Flops back down on pillow* I have way too much energy today. I think I might go expend it on tidying my room...or bugging the guys of the FMV forums...>.> Naaah. I'm not that mean.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Hans Zimmer (...everything)
Oscar Wilde (Picture of Dorian Grey)
My dad! (He got my internet working again)

Saturday :: Naah! CSI!!

2006-03-04T11:13:00.000Z

Oh...my...God...I watched the season 5 finale of CSI last night on Living TV...it was so...emotional! I was sat on the end of my bed with my hands clasped going, "Find him!! Find him!! Please!!"...maybe I should explain. It was a two part episode where a CSI agent was kidnapped, put in a plexi-glass case and buried under all this sand...and the webcam of him trapped in this box was sent to the CSI headquarters...*waaaaaaaaaaah*!! And they find him...and then...they can't get him out of the box because he's sat on pressure-activated explosives...and he's just covered in ant bites and crying hysterically...so the Chief just sits on the box and puts his hand on the lid and says, "put your hand on mine" and he does...;_; ;_; It made me cry!! *Sobs* I wanna do something this emotional! (Without being EMO, XDD...I'm tired).

Damon is taking two weeks off school! ;_; Damon who has not taken a day off since...well, ever...*Sigh* I remember when Xan did this...he went off to "find himself" and ended up walking to Bristol or somewhere similar. Damn. When I want to find myself I listen to Hans Zimmer and read...or talk to my friends and ask them for help. Good luck, Damon!! ^^

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses ::

CSI! CSI! CSI!
Hans Zimmer (The British Years)
Oscar Wilde (Picture of Dorian Gray)
Stephen King (Everything's Eventual)

Friday :: Oscar Wilde

2006-03-03T19:31:00.000Z

^^;; Ahhh...Oscar Wilde is, indeed, a genius. And an unrecognized one. The English critics all compare new literary works to Shakespeare - but what of Wilde? His writing is not only ingenious but hides so many salient points behind witicisms such as, "You never say a moral thing, and you never do a wrong thing" (Picture of Dorian Gray). I'm so glad I chose English Lit.! It's broadening my horizons, that's for sure.

What else to report? I have ordered a media player (Mustek thing) from Amazon! It can record pictures, videos, audio and things straight of the television! I can put Enterprise scenes on there! *Squees*! Along with pictures! And I can record quotes too ;o) It's going to revolutionize my life as my laptop has done! ^^;; Happy, happy! But it will take two weeks to arrive, and I only have £40 towards the £190 bill -_-. Damn and blast! Eight weeks? Naaaah! Damn consumer society. I want to write a play against the times like Mister. Wilde. Maybe I shall.

On the plus side, I shall have it and enough dosh to blow on time to go to the York University trip!! Yess! I'm also taking my laptop...:s This will be the first time it's been out of the house since it's been delivered, XDD. Woo! There are eight students and one teacher going ;o) We're gonna have a blast!

More on the Enterprise font :: I've done slash fics! YESS! Proper ones, not just "quick shag yeah I love you" ones. Those ones annoy me. Currently working on "You're So True" which is going to blend into the next fic. Note to Self :: consult Denji-san. !! Re :: THAT plot device. :o/

Nikkalla came back from the vets today. She's all sedated and mopey and sad!! But kawaii! We're taking her back tomorrow so the Vet can check her stitches.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses ::

Oscar Wilde (A Picture of Dorian Gray)
Hans Zimmer (The British Years compilation)
James Blunt (Tears and Rain, Goodbye My Lover)
Any shounen-ai artist or writer in the whole world!!
Wentworth Classics (any book £1.50??? Naaah?)

Thursday :: Oops!

2006-02-23T16:19:00.000Z

Sorry I haven't been updating (to anyone who reads this!), but it's been a strange and emotional time recently. I know that sounds strange, but it has. It's...odd. I'm actually finishing fan fictions (Cursed, Don't Wanna Miss A Thing, Love's Hate Letter, Table Manners and have nearly finished You're So True), and I've made several new friends on FMV. ^^.

*Ack* But I have a major problem. Yes, Denji-san, you know what it is. It's *that* scene. I'm so scared about writing it! >.< But I suppose I must...you did yours afterall, and I know that took a lot of skill and courage (despite what you say) and I am going to follow your prime example. -_-.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Woo! Go York Trip!

Saturday :: Boosh Live!

2006-02-18T12:34:00.000Z

Ack! In an hour and a half Jess is picking me up and we're gonna go see the Mighty Boosh team live in Oxford! Nani! ^^ I really can't wait.

Well, it's been an unproductive and boring half term so far...these are the things I have done:

Law posters
English newspaper work
Write 3/5 of the "Fallen On A Broken Rose" Enterprise fan fictions...I'm currently stuck on Cathexis Mirror
Created a new MSN account for only my close friends when I need some peace and quiet with them
Discovered the joy of the Five Minute Voyager forums and their wonderful patrons
Discovered the joy of Life on Mars
Watched the season finale of Hyperdrive
Been to the dentists and booked in for a scale and polish (March 1st)
Discovered some new clothes ^^
Used my printer more times than should be humanly possible
Got my bedroom EXACTLY as I now want it
Thought, read, written

Okay, well, maybe that's actually a pretty productive half term, XDD. I hope our teachers all had nice rests so they're not all stressed out when we come back.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. I also found out that yellow highlighter glows seriously brightly under blue fairy lights, ^^.

Friday :: Feng-Shui

2006-02-10T18:03:00.000Z

*Phew*. I just spent 5 hours today cleaning my room. I've done everything from clear the top of my wardrobe to throwing out 2 chests of drawers for more space. ^^ But now my Feng-Shui is all up to scratch and I feel really great...plus it also feels like I've done a good amount of exercise too, so all is well and accounted for.

Also, Enterprise season 2 has arrived, woo hoo! "Dead Stop" is such a creepy exercise...but you get to see a certain someone in his underwear ;o). Aaah, I feel so good at the moment. It's half term, it's Friday, it's just the right temperature in here, I had a great tea and I can have chocolate later ^^. Also, the Da Vinci Code movie is out soon! Whee!

~~Lostoyannaya

Sunday::Smut? Moi?

2006-02-05T12:23:00.000Z

Gah! Where is the time going? Why is it Sunday already? And...crap, it's also Febuary! I feel like I'm stuck in the Anastacia song, "Time", all over again...

On the plus side, my writing has matured! ^^. Yep. I actually wrote a smut scene...and made it good without being teenagerish! Okay, maybe this isn't something good to be boasting about, but I think now that in the past my basic refusal to put any kind of smut in any fan fictions at all was a little...well, childish. Anyone reading my past ff's will no doubt note that the two characters kiss, and then get into a colossal fight which usually ends with one of them going in to hospital. (This happens with Emma a lot in the UFO-verse). And that was my denial! Seriously damaging my character so that they got no smut! (Yep, I am derranged. Deal with it...). So now I'm un-denialing and I've finally made a good Enterprise fan fic! Or should that be, intense fan fiction. Eh heh....yeah.

And now I've practised my new "skills" in the fan fiction universes, I can now apply it to general fiction. Also, I'm trying out handwriting a lot of my new 'fics, as it'll help come exam-essay time. I should really be handwriting my diary but since I got the internet in my room I've been using my Blog more...>.> I should get back on track! ^^

I have work later on this afternoon, foo. I don't like working the afternoons on Sundays because it's quiet and it seems like a quarter of my weekend has been brutally hacked off. On the plus side I'm working with Julia and she's really cool ^^. And Carol's cold is all better! Lots of people are off at school because of it...that's why we have all the frees...our teachers are all dying, @@

I'm also offloading all of my photos onto Ringo, as Bebo is too slow. ^^.

~~Lostoyannaya

Friday::Blue

2006-02-03T19:56:00.000Z

I have fairy lights above my bed!!! ^^ They help me sleep at nights and they're so preeettty~~

This is a pretty pointless post. I realised that if nothing happens I have nothing to talk about...so...:

1. Ordered Enterprise Season 2 (woo! Minefield, Singularity, Catwalk and The Crossing here I come!!)
2. No teachers here this week...so loads of frees!!
3. I'm a Prefect.
4. Will and Grace is on.

My life is dull.

~~Lostoyannaya

Monday::School

2006-01-30T16:08:00.000Z

It would be nice if once in a while we had teachers. I had seven frees generated from teachers being away last week, and this means we've all fallen behind on our work. Added to that that none of us can remember our verbs work and so Dr. Eames is really mad at us, and you have a full-blown problem. -_- And the exam board have told us to get a copy of "A Woman of No Importance" that's actually out of print, so they've had to issue a correction...and our History textbook is also totally unavailable unless you're willing to wait until the end of the course to recieve it. And they say Mr. Blair is doing wonders for our education system. @.@ He's doing something, alright...

*Sigh* I burnt my tongue when I got home and my feet hurt...today has not been a good day. The only up part was that I've remembered to leave the Enterprise disc with Shuttlepod One on it in my DVD drive so I can watch it now...

~~Lostoyannaya

Saturday::Big News!

2006-01-28T18:53:00.000Z

Oh...my...God...grandma and grandad came around for tea.....and Grandad is giving me his car!!! His old Polo......;_; I am so...speechless right now! (Well, that's why I'm typing). It's all happening so fast...I'm growing up...I'm going to University...and suddenly I'm excited!! ^^;; Life is beginning, you know? Life is actually beginning. It's like your childhood is a prologue and your life is the main part of the book, and then your retirement will be the epilogue. And there're so many mistakes to make and people to meet and love or annoy and...>.> I'm getting high from this keyring...>.>

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Grandma and Grandad (woooo!)
Hans Zimmer-san
Mary-Anne-san
Nikkalla
Mom
Dad
Everyone...you know who you are!!

Thursday::Weekend! Nearly...

2006-01-26T19:06:00.000Z

Gaah...I'm now hooked on "Song for the Lonely" by Cher. It's such a good song...really makes me feel peppy and creative at the same time! *Opens 360 Share to find more*. I love songs like that...the club anthem types were you have a peppy beat and good lyrics ^^;;. Cher was so good at this...>.>

Mary-Anne-San had to go home sick today -_-. If she is not in school tomorrow I will not go 'round, because her getting better would be top priority *shakes fist* hear that, MA?

English Language was cancelled today as Dr. Eames was away (yup...another teacher away...) so me and Camellia spent the time listening to music on our MP3 players and talking about physics (it's really complicated. Daisy chipped in and it was like they were talking a strange alien language). The theme to Brokeback Mountain is beautiful~~and so is the Cher song, XD XD.

Buuut...it's Friday tomorrow!! I have double English Lit. (the coursework half) and then a free, and then English Language (the psychology half), and then I can go home! ^^;;. It's the only "easy" day I have...some people who only do 2 subjects are off all the time...>.>

~~Lostoyannaya

Currently Listening To: "Song For The Lonely", Cher.

Wednesday::Half Day!!

2006-01-25T13:06:00.000Z

Law was cancelled today, and seeing as though I don't do PE (sorry, CS), I came home early ^^;;. I didn't sleep very well last night. I had this weird dream all about rape and it was really scary...;_;...so I'm glad for the rest. On the plus side, Dostoyevsky arrived yesterday morning from America (not literally), and I'm now reading "A Weak Heart". It's such a good story...Fedya describes the relationship between Arkasha and Vasya so well......;_; but it's so sad at the end...

Short post today.

~~Lostoyannaya

Sunday::Exhasted...

2006-01-22T20:11:00.000Z

Urgh. Flurgh. I got home from work an hour ago and I'm still exhasted......we had no customers between 3:15 and 4:15, which was fine in a way but made time drag....and then we had this really arrogant woman who was obviously very wealthy (so why was she shopping in our shop??) and treated me like some kind of dirt she'd stepped in. *Sigh*. Then I pulled some skin off my finger and it hurt everytime I opened the till drawer...

On the plus side I am looking forwards very much to going back to school! I miss everyone there...Stefan and Damon and Bradley and Dan and Paul and Mary-Anne and...well, I could continue, but you get the point. Stefan and Dan were off-sick too on the day I tried to go back and so I haven't seen them in yonks. ^^;;. And no more The Spire!!! Ever! Even if I have to re-take the exam, I won't read the book again. I refuse on my basic human right principles. I really don't get a long with it...but King Lear is a true work of genius.....the imagery and metaphor is brilliant....

I'm definately doing a study of MASH units in my individual history assignment, no matter what the teacher says. The research material isn't too hard to find - I've bought a book by a doctor who served in a MASH unit (and who was also an advisor to the TV series) and I'm gonna read it before summer.

~~Lostoyannaya

Saturday::The Day Before Sunday

2006-01-21T11:23:00.000Z

I'm watching the Star Trek: Enterprise episode "Shuttlepod One" and it's kind of like listening to some of the boys in our tutor group. They can bitch for England! (Or in Trip's case, America!). And then they go on and on about us having cat fights and so forth....>.> Talk about being hypocritical....

We watched "The Island" and "Skeleton Key" last night, and both were not what we were expecting but actually really great. "The Island" reminds me a lot of "Fifth Element", especially when they're in futuristic New York trying to find their duplicates. The magazines and film reviewers all rubbished it but I thought it was really good~~okay, so it's a little special-effects driven, but after LOTR who's gonna care? It irritates me that sometimes critics say, "too special-effects fuelled"....hello? LOTR has had more special effects put into it than any other movie I know of (with exceptions to Sky Captain and Sin City), and yet whenever anyone brings it up it's as though there is an exception rule in that case. *Grinds teeth down to sharp points*.

The "Skeleton Key" was partially a relief, actually. As it was from the writiers of "The Ring" I imagined it was going to be very, very scary but they managed to turn the frights into background spooks, limiting them to the odd nightmare sequence. ^^;;. That was a good movie too, with good acting from the whole cast and a twist you thought couldn't happen. The only thing I would say is, like Gothica, the title has little to do with the rest of the film...

I got a surprise too, as Ethan Philips was in "The Island" (I thought I knew him from somewhere; at first I thought he was John Billingsley, but then his voice gave him away), and then Peter Sarsgaard showed up in "Skeleton Key". I'm glad he's got a good career - since K-19 totally bombed at the box office I was afraid he'd get "Thunderbirds" syndrome and never work again. But he's back on track.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Hans Zimmer ("The Rock" theme)
Ewan McGregor ("The Island"...for playing two very different people)
Nikkalla (for managing to squeeze through a rapidly-closing door in order to comandeer food...
Madonna ("Live To Tell" and "American Pie")

Thursday::Urgh

2006-01-19T13:32:00.000Z

Well, I tried going to school, and failed miserably. It felt weird....like I shouldn't even be there. Lots of people were missing - off with whatever I had - and the people who were there were all frightening shades of grey. In short, there's a bug going 'round, eveyone.

Why are 1980's science-fiction films so good? I watched Back To The Future I-II-III and Ghostbusters I-II the other day, and they are genius. It's like they relaxed the rules in the 80's to give the science fiction a blend of comedy, making television shows today follow on from this - what would Andromeda be without the little character jokes that go on in an episode? Also, the 80's gave birth to Star Trek: The Next Generation, which is hailed by many fans as the best series (although I personally couldn't get on with it. Enterprise and The Original Series, and possibly Voyager are the ones I get along with).

Star Wars episode VI came out in 1983, and like Lord Of The Rings has now inspired many fantasy-based box-office failures such as Alexander and King Arthur, it inspired many science fiction films like Battlestar Galactica. Now, is this everyone just jumping on the band wagon, or is this a genuine science fiction revolution, welcoming in the new generation of cinema-goers? As Star Wars revolutionised special effects, more and more people went to the cinema to witness the changing tides of the films. And after LOTR did the same, Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow and Sin City took things further by adding a totally CGI based enviroment around genuine actors, splicing what Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within did in 2001.

Um....I got lost. Anyway, my main point that was the 1980's was a genuine revolution for science fiction, despite the fact that many excellent films such as Forbidden Planet and The Day The Earth Stood Still had been released in the 1950's. The craze lasted roughly 20 years, and then LOTR was introduced, bringing cinema to accept fantasy-based films. (The craze in books had been kick-started by Harry Potter, JK Rowling). I suppose before then the main focus was on "war films" such as Casablanca....

Before I went home today, however, I worked out what I was going to do for my individual assignment in History. My question will be something like, "Why did the use of MASH units in the Korean War lead to better life expectancy for the average foot-soldier?". I want to talk about how doctors were made to join the army and the general feeling of discontent amongst them, as well as how the Korean War was the first war to be fought with helicopters. (Helicopters were invented by Russian-American Игорь Иванович Сикорский who also developed the first four-engine aeroplanes. His ideas were unfortunately stolen by the American government in the light of the Red threat in Korea).

Urgh.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses::

Hans Zimmer ("Busa", "King Of Pride Rock", "Navy Seals Theme" and "Thunderbirds" [from the Thelma and Louise OST].
Star Trek: Enterprise, Season 1 and 2 only.
Blogger! ^^;;
MASH (the rapartee between Hawkeye, Trapper and Frank is quite unique and an excellent modernisation of Groucho Marx).
John Williams ("Jurassic Park Main Theme, Piano Version")

Wednesday::Boredom

2006-01-18T18:14:00.000Z

I hate the day before you go back to school after an illness. It's like you're too poorly to go back but you're well enough to be doing things...and there's that awful time the next morning when you have to wake up really early~~why does school start so early? They know you're pretty much ineffective until at least eleven am, so getting up and doing anything before then seems to be pretty much ineffective....~~

There's nothing on TV. Surfing time.

~~Lostoyannaya

Wednesday::I Feel Weird

2006-01-18T07:32:00.000Z

Urgh. My stomach is all like, "Losty. I know what you ate yesterday, Losty. It was an omlette, wasn't it, Losty? You know I don't like omlettes, don't you, Losty? And what was this you had with it? Baked beans and a jacket potato? When you're already feeling sick? Prepare to be in pain." I have a cruel and vindictive stomach. On the plus side I don't have to get out of bed until this afternoon, when I try to prove to myself I'm well enough to go back to school tomorrow so I can start a "catch-up session", which I hate. Everyone else knows what's goin' on except you and all of the teachers forget you were away anyway and plough on ahead speaking some kind of foreign language or something...

Anyway, here's a more detailed overview of the exams, now that they are over and we are all awaiting the results with small bottles of anti-depressants and automatic pistols:

1. History --

1a) Why did the Liberal Governments fail to deal with the rise in political extremism in the years 1919-1922?
b) Describe the stages Mussolini took to become dictator in the years 1922-1925.

These were hard. Mind-numbingly haaaaaaaard, you hear?

2. Law --

1a) How is a Lay Magistrate selected and appointed?
b) What is the value of using lay magistrates and juries in criminal trials?

2a) Describe 3 forms of ADR.
b) What are the advantages of using ADR?

These were easy. We all came tumbling out of our exam and started asking each other if we'd read the test paper wrong (I think we had....or else this is all just a wonderful dream......actually, wouldn't that make sense? Have I died and gone to heavan? I hope not....).

3. English Literature --

2) How appropriate is the opening of the Spire?

It had a passage too, but seeing as though I completely do-not-get-on-with-that-damn-book I am not going to copy it out, because unless I've failed miserably I am never going to read the book again (sorry, Demon, I tried.....but in the end, I'm a King Lear student through-and-through. Now there's genius).

*Phew* But our exam timetables in May and June are pointing for everyone to do at least 15-19 exams, so doctors should expect requests for caffeine tablets and Costcutters is going to be selling a lot of Red Bull.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. I have seen the trailer for the Da Vinci Code (check out www.apple.com/trailers) and it looks like it's going to absolutely rock....with Hans Zimmer-san doing the music, of course, and Audrey Toutou (sorry if that's spelt wrong...) as Princess Sophie! ^^;;. Rock on!

Oooooh! And X-Men 3!!!!! There's a guy who has wings like an Angel~~.

PPS. We have just conducted a field test and my wireless can be on when mom's internet connection is on too! Isn't that amazing? Go, technology!!

Current Roses:

Hans Zimmer ("Busa" and "Verspitillo" [With James Newton Howard])
Tenacious D ("Tribute" and "City Hall")
Netgear (for making wireless so easy!)
Anastacia ("I Do")
Madonna ("Live To Tell" and "American Pie")
Cat Stevens ("Tea For The Tillerman" ~~ thanks, Angie!!)
Aqua ("Dr. Jones" and "Tarzan and Jane")

I'm making this post...wirelessly!

2006-01-17T14:42:00.000Z

Finally! After weeks of waiting! Wireless internet on my laptop! Dad bought me a Wireless Netgear Card this morning and away we went! ^^;;. And it's really quick, too. I'm so...joyful...and sick at the same time :s. There's this weird bug going around the school and everyone in my tutor group seemed to have it this morning...half of us did our English Literature exam and then went home! (And we got our exam timetables from the exam board today...we have 19 exams in May...). Stefan looked a lot worse than me and I felt sorry for him...it's not often he acts all droopy and disconcerted, but today he was........

Our exam was okay. We all did the question, "How appropriate is the beginning of The Spire?" and I think everyone did okay. We had History and Law too, and Law was so easy!!! It asked us for three forms of ADR and only the advantages....everyone did the same questions too, hah!

See ya laters. I'm off to surf.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. To Denji and Bex: Now that I have wireless I will have time to keep in contact. Sorry for being so short with you.

What's this? Wireless?

2005-12-29T13:14:00.000Z

Hurrah! As part of a late Christmas present, early birthday present, I have gotten wireless internet! (With AOL, admittedly...). >.> So I shall be able to update my Blog everyday! As well as my photoblog, Sunfall! (See links). Hurrah for technology! (And parents!).

To Denji and Bex: Sorry I haven't updated for so long! I had a manga and DVD overload and was strictly confined to my room, only to come out when shopping or dinner beckoned -_- (hey, I could make a fairy-tale out of this!), but I shall be updating regulary from now on, promises.

~~Lostoyannaya

5 Days 2 Go!

2005-12-20T18:57:00.000Z

Aaah~~Happy Crimbo to the world! I just found out I don't have to work next Tuesday because my store's opening hours are being changed, so I am free for a week! ^^;;. More time to spend with my Crimbo presents...boy are there a lot! I think I only remember asking for seven things...and now the trees being held up by presents! I can't wait to give Dad his! There's this one present that I can't wait for him to open!! X3!

5 Days To Go!

Why is it that Crimbo songs are the best? I was listening to "I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday", and then there was John Lennon and Yoko Ono's "Happy Christmas (War Is Over)"~~that is such a beautiful song. Why did that guy kill Mister Lennon? He could have gone on and done such wonderful things for the world. Instead he has become the target of unfair and possibly unwanted media hype. It makes me sick ~~ anytime something new about either him or Princess Diana comes out the media are all over it for days and days, and you just wonder why! >.>

Ahh~~Holst: The Planets. Now there's someone who can get orchestral music right, along with Zimmer-san and Silvestri-san.

Nothing much else to say. Ciao for now!

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Gustav Holst: The Planets
Hans Zimmer: Thunderbirds OST
Alan Silvestri: Tomb Raider II: The Cradle Of Life
Johnny Depp: for general great acting skills
Fritz Lang: Excellent direction on Metropolis
John Lennon and Yoko Ono: Happy Christmas (War Is Over)
Alan Alda and the cast of MASH (for long afternoon viewing)

PS. http://www.michaelwhaite.com/snowfun.html

Oh yes, let's hear it for the NHS~~

2005-12-16T12:38:00.000Z

My wound has, finally, healed. It's been six months of annoying and time-consuimg doctors and hospital appointments, and finally it is all over. -_-. I am so glad and happy ~~ what a perfect birthday present! And, to add to the excitement of the day, I'm getting £20 a week from the EMA! It's a wonderful, wonderful day.

Also, last night, I found out I could make playlists of 100 tracks on my MP3 player without connecting it to my computer! And each playlist can have a little icon with it to tell you what kind of playlist it is! Technology is so clever! ~~ Or maybe I'm just in a tres amusant mood...

Once again I am in the NMRC in Swindon with my mother! ^^;;. I really, really love it in this building. It's so lovely and quiet ~~ I could so work here after University! Oh, and I've decided the Uni I want to go to...It's Plymouth! I can do a joint honors in History (1605-present day) and Creative Writing (where you learn to write creatively :P). ^^;; life is too good right now, it really is.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

The NHS (come on; they don't do so badly!)
Hans Zimmer (Batman Begins)
James Newton Howard (Batman Begins and King Kong)
Daniel Powter (You Had A Bad Day)
PCD (Don'tcha)
William Golding (The Pyramid)
Now! 32 (Fairground)

Thursday, glorious Thursday...anti-climax again~~

2005-12-15T18:17:00.000Z

Gosh. You know, all the last days we've had recently have been so anti-climatic. In Law we had a massive party filled with Law-themed games, but then in both English and History it was as if Christmas didn't even exist! -_-. I know our teachers are concerned about our A-Levels, but there's no need to go totally over the top as they did. History Teacher even kept us in for ten extra minutes at lunch time to explain the Matteotti crises to us in a little more detail. Again, -_-.

But who cares? The joy of Crimbo is upon us, even if E-Tomi is being slow to download songs. >.> But whatever. I am now collecting the Now! CDs to place on my MP3 Walkman...sometimes, compilation CDs are way better than whole albums. I don't know; that's what I think, anyway.

~~Lostoyannaya

Early Escape~~

2005-12-14T15:35:00.000Z

Me (and about half of sixth form) escaped the school quickly today to skip a "The World And You" assembly which is being hosted by some Christian group. I tell you, the amount of "you must all be Christian" bashing we get in our school is ridiculous. And not because I hate the reigion in some way, but because half the people in our year don't believe in God and don't want to. We even had a governor at our GCSE presentation thing who basically made out that we owe our grades to God. We don't. We owe our grades to hard work (and caffeine tablets).

~~End Rant~~

One more day to go! On Friday I'm going into work with mum again, and then along to the hospital, and then back to work with mum. It's weird; last time I went into work with her is the day I got my MP3 player, so it's now officially...*thinks*...three weeks old? ^^;; happy birthday, good style and taste in music! (November 24th...it'll be a month old on Christmas Eve...^^).

Film report: We rented Tom Cruise's War Of The Worlds and Tim Burton's Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (on seperate nights) and they both rock! Apologies to all the bad things I've ever said about Tom Cruise~~his acting is absolutly spectacular in this. And he plays this totally non-generic character in this; he's not the guy hell bent on saving the world but rather a guy hell bent on keeping his family alive. It's done so well, and the whole thing isn't really based on special effects (although it helps). There's a bit at the start where there's this massive crack in the pavement in the main town square, and it runs right through the church and sheers away the front of the building from the rest of it. Then the light hits it and it's a spectacular scene to have put in; the first film ends up in a church. And Morgan Freeman does the voice-over...what a wonderful voice he has^^.

Side-note to Denji and Bex: Did you get Connexions cards? We had them done before the Swansea trip~~if you do, you get discount in Partners stationary shop.

Ahh~~OST music is so wonderful~~

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

Steven Spielburg (War of the Worlds)
Tim Burton (Charlie And The Chocolate Factory; Batmans 1&2)
Hans Zimmer (Lion King OST; Gladiator OST; The Rock OST)
John Williams (Jurassic Park OST; Star Wars OST)
Frank Pereti (The Oath; for making me wince)
Sony Corporation! (For great sound quality in listening to the above)

~~KI? Monday? Politics and drama? And where is Paulica?

2005-12-12T12:23:00.000Z

Ahhh, yes, KI is back and better than ever! (Again). I've just had English Lit. with no teacher and so I was brainstorming ideas for the return of the Incident, and guess what? it matched up with a story idea I was toying with ages ago, where a terrorist group fights against a totalitarian government to free the race they've enslaved. And, viola! The idea combines with KI. MF (sorry to use abbrieviations) gets bought into the group when FM (hah! MF and FM....) "buys" her from her owner to get more peeps into the movement. And the KI could actually happen in the book, right! ^^;;. It all has something to do with the Russian revolution as well, but I actually haven't figured out what yet. Perhaps the KI could equal the Kornilov Affair or the July Days or even the Febuary Revolution....mwahahahaaaaaa... <-- orange squash hitting my sugar levels.

Finally back on track with my characters as well. For a while I have felt really unsafe about writing about them...like people might think they are personifications of myself. But they're not - my characters are personifications of the people I see around me. They're like a characture (sp?) of life, translated into a science fiction/political drama thing. <-- perfect to describe the KI...

A la montagne. I just discovered I have a recommendation even though I'm a Sixth Former, XD. It's from my English Lang. teacher for a piece of work I did eons ago. I find that unsettling and funny-full at the same time.

As well, my wound is getting better! It's less than half a centimetre deep and about that wide. It should all be healed by next week^^;;. I miss entonox...>.>

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Roses:

Hans Florian Zimmer (Batman Begins)
John Williams (Schindler's List)
Graeme Revell (The Negotiator)
Frank Klepacki (Hell March & Hell March 2, Act On Instinct and Face The Enemy)
Like Wow! (Shrek OST)
Partners Stationary (I spent way too much money there last weekend, XD)

~~Saturday

2005-12-10T19:04:00.000Z

I'm listening to mum and dad watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (new), and someone is getting beaten up. I'm scared.

Today I spent £19.03 on stationary. Two things were for someone else for Xmas. The rest was mine. All mine. All those pens and notepads...>.> I really shouldn't buy anymore...with the stock I have I could start a shop, XD.

Off to watch Madacascar, or however it's spelt.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. To Denji: The best time is Saturday after 1pm, or after Friday 16th I'm free anytime (apart from Tuesdays...I work Tuesdays...) apart from Monday the 19th at 3pm because me and mom have an academic review apointment with Mrs. Wiltshire...oh, and the following Saturday, of course. It's kind-of Christmas day. If I don't hear from you (and I probably won't with the MSN screen name you have) I will simply drop your present through the door sometime next week. It's not what I told you it would be and is kinda a joint-present, but I think you'll like it anyway. Off to drool at Straker...er...I mean, watch Madacascar...yeah.

Friday, 16 Days to Go!

2005-12-09T11:28:00.000Z

Sorry for the short post yesterday - people were looking over my shoulder and reading everything I typed which always makes me feel really, really uncomfortable and so I couldn't type anything major.

We talked about sexism today in English Language. Everyone has such strong opinions - and usually boys vs. girls. I tried to point out that women do not just spend 21 years of their lives going to University just to end it all with kids, whereas Tara pointed out that employers will not employ women between the ages of 20 - 30 because they're more likely to have children. However, it has now been proved that more women are having children over the age of 40, so employer's statistics are way out of line.

Besides, nowadays men want to take Maternity leave as well, because they want to look after their children, and there are more single mothers around. <-- two points made there, I don't know what I was trying to say. But sexism isn't just about women - no-one argued the point of sexism against men. (Well, Stefan tried but didn't get anywhere). Husband-beatings are just as common as wife-beatings but aren't reported as men don't want to get their pride damaged. Damon said that men are always fitter than women, but this isn't the case - if you get a scrawny man and a heavy-set woman then the woman has the advantage. -_-. English Language Psychology is just so much fun at the moment. We have all of these massive debates on everything, then make it in to some kind of logical sense to write down. English Literature on the King Lear side is going better than on The Spire side, as now we have finished The Spire there doesn't seem to be anything else to say about it. (Whereas with King Lear there is way too much to say...^^;;). Hans Zimmer music is so beautiful~~and the Batman Begins soundtrack is used on the trailer for King Kong, which is naff because I don't think Mister Zimmer did the music for KK. *Checks*.....OMG. It's James Newton Howard doing the OST!!!! He worked on the Batman Begins OST with Mister Zimmer! >.> One more reason to see the film, ne? The Batman Begins OST is definately the best one I've listened to so far, followed by Gladiator and then the Lion King instrumentals (King Of Pride Rock is so sad and emotional~~).

Going now^^;;. Pleasant days everyone!

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

Hans Zimmer (Gladiator/Lion King/Batman Begins/Driving Miss Daisy)
James Newton Howard (Batman Begins/King Kong)
John Williams (Jurassic Park)
Graeme Revell (The Negotiator/Tomb Raider I)
Alan Silvestri (The Polar Express/Tomb Raider II)
Travor Rabin (Gone In 60 Seconds)
Shakespeare (King Lear)
Mary-Anne Punnett
Bruce Springsteen (Born In The USA)

Thursday

2005-12-08T12:35:00.001Z

"Nothing is inevitable until it happens." ~~ A. J. P. Taylor.

Myself and M-A are revising for the law mock exam this afternoon. It's unfair -- I have two mocks in a row! -_-. We have an awards ceremony at 7:30 as well, in uniform! The people from college don't have to wear one, which sucks.

~~Lostoyannaya

Wednesday, yawn.

2005-12-07T11:06:00.000Z

Urgh. We have just had double English Lit. with Martin-san and it was so boring. The Spire is truly great when you read it the first time, but we have now examined and tightened and analysied EVERYTHING and somehow it's not a story anymore. It's some kind of analytical narrative.

On the plus side King Lear is so much better and we're starting our coursework on it now. We get to choose which aspect we want to examine. I want to argue that King Lear is very mad right from the start but at the end, when he is seen as mad, he is actually sane, and he achieves this by percieving true need and rejecting society's opinion of true justice. It's such a beautiful and brilliant play~~why do we not have things like this nowdays? We have brilliant examinations of life and death in films such as Donnie Darko and Frank Peretti exmaines how religion can actually just turn everyone into overzealous animals in "The Visitation", but it's like nowdays people aren't worried about the deep things in life. They're just concerned with the material here and now, and arguments over abortion and immigration and things like this. Everything's political nowadays - why can't people just for one minute sit down and talk about philosophy and things that actually matter?

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

I Go By Many Names (The artist formerly known as Jessica).
Shakespeare
Paul Davies <-- as written by Paul Davies
Mary-Anne-san
The creator of Shounen-Ai/Yaoi
Bob.

~~Tuesday? Next Friday? December?

2005-12-06T13:25:00.000Z

I can't believe we break from school next Friday. Half Term was only a couple of weeks ago, right? Wait - no it wasn't...time goes by so quickly when you're at school, especially when the teachers are wrapping things up so that we can begin coursework. We had to read some past King Lear essays in English Lit. yesterday and the one myself and Tara acquired was so dry and gramatically incorrect that I took it for a C-grade, when actually it is an A. It surprised me so much - I mean, this could mean that I could get an A ^^;;.

I missed last week of school but it was like I was never gone. I haven't missed that much - only in History, where the past moves fast - and I'm so glad to be back. When you're ill and just all by yourself everything piles on top of you and because you're unoccupied you start to think of all these really deep things. It's like...I was watching Gerry Anderson's UFO (A Question of Priorities, if I remember correctly), and the episode bought home two major points to me. The first is that Straker's son, who's only eight, dies really suddenly without anyone expecting that it was going to happen. Gone, just like that. (Well, kinda).

The second was that Ed Bishop himself died this year, and that means that the character I was watching on-screen no longer exists as the actor in the physical sense, and it scared the daylights out of me. Then I started thinking, what is death if I don't believe in heavan?, and got so freaked out I had to emerse (sp?) myself in Frank Peretti's "The Visitation", which is all about someone pretending to be Jesus when really he was possesed by the devil. (Which reminds me, I want to see "Flatliners").

But, now I'm back at school with all my friends it's like all that stuff doesn't matter anymore. When your surrounded by all these people you realise that the purpose of life is not to prepare you for death but actually to teach you how to live. You have to live your life before you can die - no matter how you do it - and when you die you'll be fulfilled and happy. It's not about taking risks, exactly - but anyone who has thought of doing something and hasn't because there's something else holding them back should just go ahead and do it (within reason; I'm not talking about murder or anything). It's like...if you make your entire life all about your career and shun everything else then you are living your life but...you're not actually breathing it. (I know this is making no sense but it will do eventually). So...so if there's someone you're in love with or there's someone even you want to make friends with you should just go up and say hello because you only live once and you should make as many acquaintances as possible.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

Hans Zimmer (Batman Begins OST)
Frank Peretti (The Visitation)
Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Uncle's Dream)
Diana Degarmo (Reachin' For Heavan)
The Lion King
Shakespeare (King Lear)
Music

~~New MP3 Player, new music, new WOUND HEALING!

2005-11-24T11:54:00.000Z

^^;; That's right, my wound is finally going back to healing again! It's about an inch deep now and should be healed in the next two weeks or so. ^^;; I'm so happy!

We have a twilight lesson today with Jones-san, learning all about children's psychology. Oh, and our chorus-line musical Xmas play for next year is a go! Miss Curan, at least, is saying yes and she thinks our Head Of Sixth Form will too^^.

Oh, yes, yes. I got my new MP3 player early 'cause...I don't know why, XD. Still, is tres amusant. I put 30 albums on in the last 24 hours and I've got 16.1 gb left...LOTS MORE MUSIC, HO! I love Hans Zimmer's works~~why are they so inspiring? Mum was really nice and bought an old Empire magazine from 1995 with a one-page interview with Mister Zimmer in it. It was so cool~~he's really laid-back and doesn't worry about deadlines until they're one day away, XD. Aparently he hammered out the theme to the Lion King in a couple of weeks (and the original edit for the LK was 4 hours long~~my my!).

I'm very proud of myself. Last week I got to grips with some video-editing software and made a short three-minute video of Nikkalla-san for my parents^^. Dad acted as cameraman and took some video of her in Ballad's Ash whilst I did some whilst she was at home. She's definately more confident now ~~ in the old videos she was quiet and just...sitting there. Now you're lucky if she doesn't jump all over you 'cause she wants food. *rolly eyes*.

Cottonsoft: I would prefer it if you didn't leave such an-intellectual replies all over my comments section >.> honestly, woman. ^^;;. RSVP that party in the positive.

Bex: Hey! It's so annoying about your cousin. Seems like your mum's taking in everyone atm. Yes, my wound is fine now and is rapidly healing ok^^;;. I hope you and Denji-san are alright, I have really missed you guys -_-.

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

Hans Zimmer-san
John Williams
Alan Silvestri
Jeremy Irons (voice of Scar a la Lion King)
Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Sony (NW-HD5...you research and development guys did a great job!!)
Anastasia (Time and Left Outside Alone)
Holst (The Planets)
Panasonic (My headphones)

NMRC

2005-11-21T13:34:00.000Z

Aloha!

Am currently at work with mum. Yesterday when they checked my dressing it was absolutly vile and so the nurses at the hospital wanted me up there again today. So I came to work with her today and have been helping with the work. -_- The system is so much easier to use than SAP^^;;. It's fun because of all the arial photos.

(Wound is fine today, by the way).

Multiple Intelligence Tests

In the St. Marian School MIT I recieved the highest scores in Linguistic, Intrapersonal, Logical and Musical. This is what I got in the Maret one:

Linguistic: 7
Logical-Mathematical: 4
Spatial: 5
Bodily-Kinesthetic: 5
Musical: 6
Interpersonal: 7
Intrapersonal: 5

I definately agree with the linguistic one. I'm not so sure on the Interpersonal one...although I guess I do spend lots of time alone thinking things over and writing stories, I do also seek a crowd at school. So perhaps I'm Intrapersonal in social surroundings but left to myself I'm quite happy. Off to find another. (Our English teacher said that you need to do three or four different ones to get an idea of what your learning style is like).

Hmm...according to the official one (the website says it is anyway...like that means anything!), I'm more musical and intrapersonal than I am linguistic. It's weird.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~A Fistful of Thorns

2005-11-19T19:01:00.000Z

Have now added a Guestbook thing to my Blog (links under the Shoutbox) so that I can actually sign it at home @.@. The Shoutbox does not work properly 'cause of our cookies...or somethin'......^^;;. Well, now I'm off to watch "Envy", with Jack Black and Ben Stiller^^.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Tribute!

~~

Current Geniuses:

Hans Zimmer (everything).
Frank Klepacki (the soundtracks for Command and Conquer, Red Alert and Dune)
Alan Silvestri
Graeme Revell

Um...it's Friday.CHILDREN IN NEED NO-GO!

2005-11-18T11:17:00.000Z

I can't believe our school does nothing for children in need! -_-.

Yesterday was...so...awesome! We went to Sailsbury cathedral and climbed to the top of the tower under the Spire. It was over so quickly~~it was the second best trip after Iceland.

More later.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~A la l'école

2005-11-14T12:27:00.000Z

We have had double historie (as I am now speeling it for some weird reason) and english literature, both of which were sehr kuhl und lustig. ~~ Now have free period with no-one to sit with because Paul has been a Smurf and gone home to feed son petit chien. Alta Vista is not such a good tranlator, after all - it just told me "a la" is has, when it is quite clearly "in the manor of".

~~Lostoyannaya

~~KI? Big changes ahead...

2005-11-11T11:32:00.000Z

Wellllll....this is really weird. I was sitting there Tuesday night thinking about Le K.I. (Denji, Boopsma and Naoru should know what I mean by that), and suddenly a piece of a Ufo fan fiction I had been writing suddenly seemed to fit into what the story should be about.

Our English teacher today did not turn up because they had to cover a year eight lesson, and so I decided to write down the idea in more detail, and put more flesh on the bones, as our professeur d'histoire would say. And now...wow. The KI has changed so much. Emma is not Emma O'Neal anymore, and the Captain of le bateau is a man. Actually, most of the characters have become male. The whole premise is different...I think the idea actually began back in hospital in the summer time, when Boospma mentioned that she thought the human race would have come across aliens by now. So now they have. ~~ But the aliens are closer to fantasy-based science fiction. That's all I'm saying.

Very worried about Denji-san. I checked her Blog yesterday and she is very depressed. But what made me really worried was the fact that she didn't Email and tell me about it ~~ instead, she mentioned on her Blog she was ashamed to talk to anyone about it. Don't be, Denji-san! I'll listen, I promise -_-.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. I am thinking of collecting screen names. Here are a few I have seen already:

1. "Hard work pays off in the future, laziness pays off right now".
2. "One day I sat back and looked at the stars and thought....'Where the hell's my roof?'".
3. "Tell someone there's five billion stars in the sky and he won't believe it. Tell someone else that that bench over there has wet paint and he just has to touch it".

~~

Current geniuses:

Hans Zimmer (lets face it...everything).
Fyodor Dostoyevsky.
Me! (Sorry, am feeling rather good about myself today!).
Shakespeare (King Lear).
The person who invented MSN messaging systems.

~~Tuesday, all's normal

2005-11-08T13:28:00.000Z

Feels like we've never been away, which is slightly depressing. I mean, it's like the whole holidays just dissolved in a puff of smoke and the two week gap that was half term was just some pointless pause. I think I'm just tired, though. Our washing machine's broken and there's Christmas coming with dad moaning about the cost and there's Nikkalla and her accidents and...it just all seems to blow up, even though I personally am not involved with any of these things. It's the scar-healing thing too. I am really getting sick of going to the surgery every day, and now Sister Mack has told me I must go on penecillin I am ready to start crawling up walls. Maybe it will help me to heal faster, though.

Still a Ufo-obsessed maniac girl right now. I didn't know you could take 150 screen caps from a scene in ESP, but I guess you can. ^^;;. It was actually such a good storyline and everything....>.> Well, at least, I think it was.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Current genuises:

Hans Zimmer (for...just...everything, really).
Gerry Anderson (UFO and Stingray-desu).
The Dutch (Edam Cheese).
The inventor of Fan Fictions (everyone who writes them as well~~)
The late Ed Bishop (acting skills in general -_-).

~~First day back, anti-climactic

2005-11-07T13:42:00.000Z

Only know that Paul's father is okay, and that is good. Paul himself went home second thing - apparently he had a VERY busy holiday and so he needed sleep. Have duplicated English notes for him and will give them to him tomorrow.

Ahh~~very obsessed with Ufo and Straker at the moment (and don't my folks know it, yuck, yuck <-- southern accent from Phones in Stingray).

Haven't much time to write much else. Check back here soon, though...XD.

~~Lostoyannaya

Headaches and bad nights

2005-11-02T09:47:00.000Z

Yuck, I had a bad night last night. The minute I turned the light out I started (for some reason completely unknown to me) to think about death, and how when you're dead you don't exist and half the things you do when you're alive don't really count as anything when you're dead. Which is weird. Just imagine not existing. Anyway, it freaked me out so much I had to put the light back on and watch an episode of Ufo (The Long Sleep) before I could calm down again. But it's a very unnerving thought, really. I mean, reality is this. It's everything. So what happens when reality ceases to exist? Do we just get this massive blackness or what? Ah, whatever, it's too early in the morning for debates such as this.

Woke up with a headache anyway.

Hmmm...watched Tim Burton's first Batman last night. Michael Keaton was very good, and so was Jack Nicholson as the Joker, and the storyline was very good, but Batman Begins is still my favourite (with the 1966 version coming close second...ahh, the funny campness).

Oh, GOD...why does everyone love Lord Of The Rings so much? Why am I the only one not to like it? I'm a Science Fiction freak, I can't help it! I don't like fantasy very much...or at least, I don't like LOTR very much. Most people who saw it didn't even read the books, and ontop of that most people I spoke to at school only liked it for the special effects - they didn't even like the storyline or the characters or anything! [/rant]

*Sigh* I am going to go and surf. Peace out!

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Twins visit? GET!

2005-10-26T09:10:00.000+01:00

Sorry, have been reading too much "Perfect Get" from the Sugardrops anthology, XD. Oh well ^^;; I woke up at 5:30 am this morning after a bad dream and could not get back to sleep - added to that my alarm clock keeps beeping on the hour every hour for a reason I am not aware of. I just hope the battery was running low or something...so I changed it...*-_-*

Denji-san and Bex-san are coming over today! (Or rather, I'm going up town to get my dressing changed and meeting up with them and dragging them back to mine, XD). It shall be fun -_- We haven't seen one another properly for seven weeks now - scary thought! :s . Still, it's nice to keep up with friends, ne? Your parents tell you and tell you how it's no good, one day you will loose contact because you make new friends, but my new-ish friend (Mary-A and me were acquaintances before, maybe?) are both friends with the twins, so it's hard not to.

Just found out last night that Xan found himself by walking to Chippenham, staying under the town hall, and walking back again. Sounds very...enlightening! I wish I had the guts to do something like that...I wouldn't even make it to our town hall...

~~Lostoyannaya

Current Geniuses:

Oscar Wilde
Hans Zimmer (Batman Begins)
Christopher Nolan and the cast of Batman Begins~~
The Beatles (Help and Twist And Shout)
William March (The Bad Seed)
The inventor of lever-arch files (some company in England, apparently)
The inventor of lined paper and the inventor of pens ^^;;

PS. Kudos to finding yourself, Xan!

~~Justice?

2005-10-23T08:50:00.000+01:00

Ahh~~bitter sweet symphony is a genius of a song. Speaks so much for the greediness of some people in life...I wonder what it is like to go through life thinking of nothing but money? Very sad, by the sounds of it. I mean, if you just worry and think of material objects all of the time, rather than other people, all you're going to be left with is deep-rooted angst because at the end of your life when you've collected all of this money and all of these material things, you're left with no-one to love you or care for you. It's quite a sad prospect, really.

King Lear is such...well, I was going to say, "genius of a play", but I've already said that for bitter sweet symphony. So maybe I shall just say it is a great play, even thought great doesn't really describe how I feel about it. I've reached a point where Gloucester has paid Poor Tom to lead him to the top of a cliff so that he can throw himself off; but Edgar tricks him, making him think that he's fallen and has lived. Lear then comes across both of them, absolutly stark-raving mad and wearing a crown of weeds, and speaks of the true mockery of justice.

Lear: See how yon justice rails upon yon simple thief. Hark with thine ear, change places and handy-dandy, which is the justice, which is the thief? Thou hast seen a farmer's dog bark at a beggar?
Gloucester: Ay, sir.
Lear: And the creature run from the cur - there thou mighst behold the great image of authority: a dog's obeyed in office.

I think the true parody of justice is the mock trial of Regan and Gonerill...I mean, Shakespeare got it just right. What is true justice? Some people think it's an eye-for-an-eye, whereas others think that merely detaining someone will help them see the errors of their crimes. Then again, what is a crime?

In Law we studied a sheet called "Judges in the Dock", where judges had dealt out (or not dealt out) completely unreasonable sentences. I believe there was one where a man was let go for sexually assaulting his daughter because his wife was pregnant and the judge could understand that the man was feeling frustrated. The judge blamed the wife and let the guy go. Now is that a true example of justice, or is the judge's sentence actually a crime unto itself? -_- The law is such a fickle thing.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. I have just looked back through some of my past Blog entries and I seem to be getting more mature as I go along. This is v. scary.

PPS. Remember:

Amatuers...built the ark.
Professionals...built the Titanic.

~~Shock, shock, horror, horror!

2005-10-22T18:06:00.000+01:00

Paul's dad's been in a car accident! Oh, God, I'm really, really sorry now that I didn't stay in school on the Friday - how evil and selfish of me to come home! ;_; Apparently he's in a very bad way. -_- I feel so sorry for Paul!! He's not going to America anymore either (which is totally expected) so he's not going to have much to keep his mind off of it!!

I'm so upset. Why do bad things always happen to such good people? And why do bad people never get it in the neck? I mean, yeah, there's the whole heavan and hell aspect of things, but if you're like Edmond from King Lear you don't believe in those things, and I honestly believe that whatever you believe in is the thing that happens to you...so these bad people don't get punished...It's so...cruel, I suppose. Why is life so horrible sometimes? Who decided to make the world this way? Is it just human greediness, or is it something more?

Still, I'm being too negative. Paul's Dad could just recover, like so many others have. My heart goes out to him -_-.

~~

Demon leant me "The Bad Seed" by William March, and omfg is it a good book. So full of twists...and the language is very...I don't know. It was written in the 1950's, and it just seems to have that certain tweak about it. A kind of style.

I want my fictional city (as yet undecided in name and plot, XD) to be set in a perpetual 1950's mood, but a bit like The Narrows in Batman Begins. I found this really cool (and depressing) picture of an Indian city that was taken in the slums in Nat Geo, and that was just totally inspiring. I already have the basis for my characters, but, like I said, everything else is undecided. Maybe I can somehow tie it in with a massive socialist revolution, as we're doing Facist Italy and Revoluntionary Russia in History ATM...

-_- I don't know. Maybe I'm just full of air or something. Perhaps it will never come to anything - but still, you need inspiration and somewhere for your mind to escape to. I think that's the problem with some really serious people who have breakdowns - their minds are so focused on the real world that they have no form of escapism when something bad happens. (Maybe I have just been watching too much Straker-angst on UFO...I can't believe Ed Bishop is dead! How can this happen?).

*Sigh* The world is a very interesting yet complicated place. -_-. I mean, it's like, when you're young you don't realise things. You just see things happen and think, "Well, that looks easy", and it's not. It's not at all. What's worse is that sometimes you see things happen that you don't understand at the time, but years later you come back to them and suddenly this realisation hits you, and you think, "Oh my god, I understand now!". Like there was a teacher who used to talk all the time about her husband, which I thought was very boring, but then gadually she stopped talking about him and started to act really moody and sad. Then her name changed. But at the time, I didn't think anything of it.

It's like the short story "Snowdrops" that we had in our English anthology, about how the funeral procession was going by but the little boy didn't notice how upset his teacher was getting because he was too interested in the flowers. But the audience realised that the teacher knew the person in the coffin, and that in fact it was her boyfriend. It was such a heart breaking little story -_- But, of course, you couldn't say anything like that because all the people around you would jump on you and start harrassing you. That's why A-Level is so much better, because you're with a class that truly likes English, or at least is passionate about it.

I read into Act 4 of King Lear today. It's such a profound tale about life (unlike The Spire, which is turing out to be extremely dull) and about loyalty and love. I'm prolly going to go and read some more, XD.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Last Day? -- Anticlimax

2005-10-21T12:11:00.000+01:00

Well, arrived at school today expecting everyone to be really, "Yay, it's half term", and instead find that for the one lesson I do have the teacher is off interviewing another for the application of English teacher, so technically I had no lessons. -_-. Have come home and am going to go up to the library later to look for books (and things).

Am reading William March's "Bad Seed", which Damon lent me, and it's so good @.@. This Rhoda girl is sheer evil. And am going to go to Bassett Books later to see if they have Arden's Shakespeare--King Lear, as my version of the play has a whole massive, important chunk missing (the mock-trial of Gonerill and Regan).

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Remember to look for George Orwell's Brave New World.

2005-10-20T18:04:00.000+01:00

I found a really awesome Blog today when randomly hunting through the lists powered by Blogger. It's a massive review-Blog that's been running since 1997, and they did such a cool review on Batman Begins. *Sigh* That comes out tomorrow!! XD XD!!!

~~Lostoyannaya

~~One day left, mwahaha!

2005-10-20T13:26:00.000+01:00

We have three lessons left - English Literature (The Spire) today, and then double English Literature (King Lear) tomorrow. And then that is it, because after King Lear I have a triple free because my "Professeur Anglais" cancelled her lesson later in the day...which makes Non-Uniform Day boring!! -_-. But oh well. I am looking forward to it anyway...and then it is half term! I have this great feeling of freedom approaching...

*Sigh* I listened to the Gladiator soundtrack again yesterday...how can one person (and his orchestra...okay, so not one person) make music that is so beautiful and emotive? How can Lisa Gerrad sing so well? ~~ Music is soooo inspiring ~~ Although I shall listen to Hell March on the way down to the doctors later, XD.

Nothing much else to report. KEA, amazingly, didn't ive us reams of homework for half term ^^;;. And I just have essays from the rest of the subjects, which are easy.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~National Geographic, anyone?

2005-10-19T18:49:00.000+01:00

I've decided that National Geographic looks far more interesting than Empire magazine and have asked to have it on subscription. Tinkers Lane surgery was really nice and gave me a couple of their issues with pieces about Russia in them, and they look more...I dunno...beautiful and inspiring than the magazine I get now. The landscape pictures and the different cultures...maybe I'm just growing up.

Nothing much to report school-wise. I just learnt that Friday I have double English Lit., then tripple free. What am I supposed to do? I hope it doesn't rain...I'm dying my hair tomorrow night and wearing suede, XD! If it looks like it might I may have to wear a long black coat...I maybe anyway...XD

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Tuesday, three days 'till half term

2005-10-18T12:54:00.000+01:00

Today has been pretty average - free first (history homework and chatting with Simon about Firefly and Serenity), then General Studies (Animal Farm), Law (Judiciary thing) and English Lit. (The Spire readinh, analysing every single word, because obviously an inn called "Lestoyle" is a symbol for all of salvation...>.>). And next is History with a teacher who cannot teach.

Work later as well, but at least there's no twilight lessons to run into it!

~~Lostoyannaya

~~7 Things thing

2005-10-17T19:18:00.000+01:00

I nicked this from Xan's Blog, so full copyright dealy to him.

7 Ambitions

1 - Understand Doctor Eames
2 - Stop worrying about my voice...is that normal?
3 - Become an author
4 - Become a librarian
5 - Write rhyming poetry
6 - Stop trying to write with the audience in mind...just write for me
7 - Have as many friends as possible

7 Things I Can Do

1 - Listen to music
2 - Drink milk (I didn't use to be able to on the count of the fact that I despised it)
3 - Write short stories (major achievement)
4 - Write some kind of poetry
5 - Memorise lyrics very quickly
6 - Do homework on time (what? I can...)
7 - Touch-type

7 Things I Can't Do

1 - Sleep in anytime after 8:30 (weird)
2 - Talk for more than 5 minutes without dissolving into babble
3 - Draw well
4 - Deviate from a routine
5 - Stick on a fad for more than three months (average)
6 - Hate anyone for a long time (although my hate for Tom Cruise lasted a long time...but after I saw him in Interview With A Vampire I drastically changed my desision)
7 - Listen to music without bopping around (especially "Do You Want To Be A Hero?").

7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex

1 - A good personality
2 - Good sense of humour
3 - Open-minded
4 - A person with good time management skills (IE turns up on time for things)
5 - Not totally the same tastes as me...but enough similary qualities for a good discussion
6 - A genuine person.(I could never get along with a frequent liar - from Xan)(me too - from Lostoyannaya)
7 - Looks no option....kinda.

7 Things I Say Most Often

1 - Errr....
2 - Homework
3 - Essay
4 - It's okay, it doesn't hurt >.< (with regards to abcess dressing)
5 - Nikkalla!
6 - *Grunt*
7 - Nani?

7 Favorite Movies

1 - The Rock
2 - Thunderbirds
3 - K-19: The Widowmaker
4 - Biggles: Adventures in Time
5 - Ace Ventura: Pet Detective (both)
6 - Airplane 1&2
7 - Metropolis, The Day The Earth Stood Still, TR1, TR2:COL...okay, I have more than seven, XD.

7 Things I Can't Live Without

1 - My friends - all of them
2 - My heart (and other internal organs)
3 - Music (OSTs and songs)
4 - TV 5 - Films
6 - Dreams
7 - Books

7 Things I Can Live Without/Want To Live Without

1 - Bullies
2 - Flies/Spiders
3 - AOL
4 - The Government telling us what to eat (who cares about colestorol? dictionary?)
5 - Stairs
6 - Hate
7 - Angsty characters that lead to heartbroken author, a la me, XD.

Hah! I just got this on a hair-colour test:

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy.
You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Monday, the Lear and the dragon

2005-10-17T12:51:00.000+01:00

Weird title for the post, I know, but that's the mood I'm in right now ^^;;. (I have another funny keyboard again...space bar breaking slash broken). The dragon refers to a lesson we have later which is sure to be terrifying as. ^^;; but whatever. Is the last week before half term and so I'm tres happy. And this keyboard is really, really, getting on mine nerves, fool.

Ahh, the fool from King Lear is really excellent. "Here comes a walking fire" was his pivitol quote for today. And tomorrow we have Miss Martin's The Spire, which is sure to be filled with phallic imagery.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Shakespeare?

2005-10-15T09:31:00.000+01:00

When you really think about it, Shakespeare is a genius. I mean, everyone complains that his language is too hard to read or understand, and loads of people have a grudge against The Scottish Play (that includes me), but the way he looks at life and moral issues is just so... don't know...genius? I mean, in 3:4 of King Lear, both Lear and Gloucester are pinning for Kent and Edgar, who are actually there all along digsuised as Caius and Poor Tom (Poor Tom was in Blackadder, XD XD), which is just such dramatic irony.

I hate Macbeth now because of the detail we were forced to go into (that and the teacher who taught us made the whole thing very, very boring and black-and-white, not giving us a chance for our own seperate interpretations), but I still have to admit the story is brilliant. The whole cause-your-own-downfall thing. Wonderful.

Heeeey....listening to OSTs (rather than speaking of OSTs), I wonder who did the Tomb Raider music for the game? That would be so cool to find out.

~~Lostoyannaya

--

Current geniuses:

J--C (Delta Lady)
Hans Zimmer (Thunderbirds and Lion King OST)
John Williams (Jurassic Park OST)
Alan Silvestri (TR2:COL OST)
Tchaikovsky (various)
Shakespeare (King Lear)
David Palmer, Derek Meddings and Mike Trim (UFO vehicle designs and models)

~~OSTs...and Delta Lady...

2005-10-14T18:06:00.000+01:00

We had Harvest Festival today and they were playing the Jurassic Park theme on the way in. Everyone else took the mick, but being a colossal OST fan I came straight home and d/led it from E-Tomi. OSTs are so beautful~~desu ne? John Williams is a genius...not in the same league as Hans Zimmer, admittedly (god, his music is just so beautiful...how does he manage to get it right everytime?) but still very emotive and powerful.

That's the real challenge, I reckon. Anyone can sing a song to set the mood for a film (like in Bridget Jones' Diary), but it really takes talent to make people happy or sad using an instrumental. Alan Silvestri was particulary good at inspiring tears in "Pandora's Box" from the TR2: COL OST. That's not to say that OSTs are better than artists' songs (Evanescence point in case), but they are definately more skilled and powerful, not to mention captivating.

School was okay today ^^;;. I was really looking forward to this evening, though. Weekend and all. -_-. That new mattress is great, but I think I was especially tired today because we had 2 hours of tutor first thing and so you get really relaxed, and then suddenly you're thrown back into your lessons. That and English Lit. was my first lesson, and that can be very taxing on your eyes and your brain.

Angelina Jolie kicks a$$.

~~Lostoyannaya

--

Current geniuses:

Hans Zimmer (Gladiator)
Alan Silvestri (TR2:COL)
John Williams (Jurassic Park)
James Blunt (Back to Bedlam)
Evanescence (whole band) (Fallen and Anywhere But Home)
Lisa Gerrad (Gladiator)

~~Wednesday Re: Thursday

2005-10-12T11:24:00.000+01:00

Okay, we now have a plan. On Wednesday Paul and I have an after-school lesson and so what is going to happen is that Paul and Mary-Anne will walk home as I go to the doctors, and we will all convene at my house at 5pm. (Paul is going to catch up with history and Mary-Anne with Law).

~~Lostoyannaya (not typing much because this keyboard has a weird spacebar).

No ambition? Tuesday

2005-10-11T13:29:00.000+01:00

New mattress is great. Didn't wake up once during the night until the morning, and then I didn't want to get up, and neither did Mary-Anne, who was asleep all through Law (pretty much). We were talking about jobs and pay Law and it seems everyone wants to be a barrister or solicitor and earn lots of money except me. I just want to be a librarian with a pokey little flat and write books in my free time. (Mary-Anne has just interupted to report she wants "a medium-size house with *phase out*...and kids").

Umm....what else? (I just got hit with a bottle). I have a free period next, and then a Law examy thing. Ow >.> legs stinging. -_- I then have to rush home and grab my uniform and go to work for 1 hour 30 minutes. On Sunday I spent 2 hours on the drinks isle, XD, and it looks really neat. Or, at least, it did.

Hooked on UFO. Not much else to report.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Oh, yeah, Paulica's not here again. If we should have to endure the wrath of the Evil-Doctor-Who-Is-Not-Doctor-Who-But-Is-Herr-Flick a la Hello, Hello!, then he should too.

~~Monday

2005-10-10T09:11:00.000+01:00

Hmm. I wonder if people think I'm a little weird for actually keeping a diary on a Blog? Most of them around here *sweeps out arms* seem to be political campaigns or FAQs or ABC news stories. Oh well - I'll use this post to raise awareness! Amos is going to sell charity bracelets to raise money for Parkinsons Disease, and I have volunteered to sell bracelets in our close and to relatives (I have nice relatives who are charity people, right?), and I'll buy a bracelet myself. (Her uncle has Parkinsons, and he found out on the same day that he was offered a place in Spurs football team).

I'm back on a Gerry-Anderson's-UFO-Bender. For some reason I was stood in the middle of HMV with Mary-Anne (who was deciding between "Shall We Dance?" and "Monster-In-Law") and I suddenly thought, 'Wow, I fancy watchin' some UFO'. So after we watched "Shall We Dance?" I went home and did. Ah yes - Saturday. Paul did a no-show yet again (we have now decided he's in the witness protection act and so can't give out his address or phone number) and we didn't feel like bowling when there was just us two, so we went shopping in Swindon. I got my dad two bars of Thorntons (SP?) and my mum "The Jazz Singer" on DVD, and myself a Manga comic called "Doll". It's a little like Chobits only this is short stories about how "dolls" (or cyborgs) contribute to human life in the future. Tres fascinating stuff.

What the hell? I just checked Wikipedia about UFO and Michael Billington and Ed Bishop both died in June 2005!!! How the heck did I not know about that? ;_; I'm tres sad now! That's ruined my day. -_- Ah well. I mean, life happpens.

Later:

Yesterday at Costcutters they had the radio on and I heard this really crap version of "American Pie". It was sung by a bloke but I didn't think it was the original, and he made the song sound really peppy and happy when in fact it's supposed to be quite sad and metaphorical (IE - "The children screamed" referred to peace marchers being fired upon - possibly in protest to Vietnam? When was the song written? ... Um...reached number one in 1972, so, yeah, it could be about Vietnam).

Why do people remake songs and movies? I can understand if someone like Madonna was to revamp the song because she made it really good and different from the original, but a band like Steps just copied songs EXACTLY from the original and didn't give them a unique spin or anything. (Chain Reaction being the worst).

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Thursday

2005-10-06T13:43:00.000+01:00

Going to l'hospital tomorrow to see the guy who operated on me ;_; very nervous and worried because two nurses at the surgery are telling me that the wound is gettin' deeper but all the others (including the nurses at l'hospital) are telling me it's healing fine. I will just wait to hear what he says.

Denji-san! Update your blog now! I check every day and there's nothing new ;_; Tell Bex that a miracle has occured - Dr. Eames didn't set us ANY HOMEWORK whatsoever today. It was...it is....a freaky sensation.................

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Back at School

2005-10-05T13:28:00.000+01:00

Back at school after big fiasco in le hospital! ... First two lessons back was double English Lang with Jones and we just found out she's not going to be in school for the next three weeks and so during English Lang. we have nothing to do. (That is not to say we are lazy but E. L. is a discussion module and so there is not much written work to do...and anyway Eames or Gunstone will come along and tell us if there's anything we need to write at the start of every lesson).

Mary-Anne is coming over tonight and we're gonna to a big Law catch-up session a'cause she missed last week and I missed 2 days of this week, so. And if Lee Evans happens to be on in the background, so be it. Purely coincidentally.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Saturday

2005-10-01T16:47:00.000+01:00

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life.You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

I think this is total crap. How can they tell your entire personality from the position you sleep? Just 'cause I sleep on my back doesn't mean that's who I am...does it?

We're having Jose and Mike, my Godparents, 'round tonight and I'm looking forward to it. The nurse at the hospital today said my wound is getting loads better and so maybe I only have a week left of changing hell. I sincerely hope this is the case.

Off to help mom cook.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Student?

2005-09-30T11:21:00.000+01:00

It just hit me in English Language (we were studying the view of Chomsky vs. Skinner, Naturalist vs. Behaviorist) that I am a Sixth Form student studying in-depth anaylsis of language, law, literature and history...and I love it. -_-. I really do...doing all the subjects you like the most is much better than the subjects the government think you need.

I have an account on Amazon now (don't worry Boopsma, it's just so I can write reviews for all the Hans Zimmer music and DVDs and fluff) so I am going to go and browse argue with people with reviewing power. (Have homework but I really want to concentrate on it and the Sixth Form Study Area is full of year thirteens and noise).

My Gladiator Special Edition (Anniversary) arrived yesterday and is so fricken' beautiful! Hans Zimmer and Lisa Gerrad are such geniuses when it comes to music. How can they just get things so right?? When I have me 20GB MP3 player (Xmas is 11 weeks now!) I'm gonna have all the OSTs money can buy on there with all of the LOTR OSTs (hated the films but love the music) and any other orchestral music I can find (Tchaikovsky is actually quite good...I tried it after John Agard mentioned it in "Half Caste" the poem). Ooh...these tracks have little voice clips in them! Cool.

~~Lostoyannaya

Miss American Pie~~

2005-09-29T12:24:00.000+01:00

This is probably the best song I have ever heard by far. Awesome. I want to download the original as well, although I'll probably like the Madonna version better because I always seem to like the revamped versions to the originals (although this is not so with The Weather Girls' It's Raining Men").

Very weary today. Had double History which was tres amusant, and then English Lit. which was mediocre, but I have General Studies (snore) and Law (hmm...) next which both are quite long and complicated lessons, especially seeing as though we are doing Science in GS and I hate Science. Funny, really - I used to love Science in year seven but since the interest dried up. -_-. I just about passed GCSE Science. Then I get to go to the doctors rather than English Lit. (horray...BOO! It's the psychology half, not the boring analytical half). Still, you must always be prepared to do the stuff you don't want as well as the stuff you do want to do, rather than just be lazy and do what you want to do. Because then you have a fully-rounded education rather than a narrow-minded view of your subject.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Wednesday

2005-09-28T11:04:00.000+01:00

Cannot believe it. Was planning on nice simple day where I go home at 2pm to go to the doctors during Complimentry Studies as I don't have to do it anymore, and suddenly now we have to miss half of history and all of CS to go to some stupid President thing! I'm still gonna go at two anyway, however.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. May be more later - I have break (now) and then a free period during which I have to use to get all my notes from my English Lit. book into my English Lit. copy of "The Spire".

~~Tuesday

2005-09-27T14:08:00.000+01:00

Have been feeling oddly connected to my characters and stories recently, which is odd because for a long while I've been feeling like....I don't know how to describe it. Like they're in one room and I'm in the other, and I can't get to them and they can't get to me.

But last night I started to think about K-I again and how the idea at first was actually quite childish and one-dimensional, but now I know I can add layers to it and make it quite good - make the universe it's based in more believable. I think this came about during history - the Russian Revolution but life under the autocracy before it took place, and then the oppressive and lethal system Stalin put into place. I'd love to do a massive political story like Asimov's Foundation or a religious versus state one like Russo's "Unto Leviathan". The problem with my writing - no, with me - is that I try to get to the point as quickly as possible without expending anything else along the way, and my first draft of K-I was compliment to that. I was trying to reach the climax without explaining anything along the way - I need to slow down, start to write more fluently and explanatorially (word I made up) and concentrate on political climates and characters and why they're that way without boring the reader by going on too much.

...You know, to heck with it. I read a quote the other day that said, "The only point of writing is to be published", which is total fooey. People write diaries (people not like BJ) and love letters or just simple letters and never expect them to be published. I'm going to write K-I as I think I should write it but not in a way I would expect people to read it.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Monday

2005-09-26T09:13:00.000+01:00

At school in LS2, which is a small and freezing cold classroom somewhere down the reception corridor. Have free first, then s-talk in PSHE second. What's the point? At least three girls in our year last year got preggers by the end of Prom Night. S-talks don't work! No-one listens and no-one cares. If they're gonna do it they'll do it, and no-one telling them about STDs is gonna stop them.

Weekend was weird. One moment it was Saturday and I was in the cinema with Mary-Anne, and the next I was at work in CC trying to tell someone we don't sell coconut milk. (Wish we did though). Then it was home! And bed. Where does time go? Who else here is in favour of a four-day-week and a three-day-weekend? It makes sense, rationally. If people have more free time they're more likely to go to the shops or national parks or whatever, so the shop-owners and le gasp! the government will make more money. (And we need it. Gordon's missed his budget targets AGAIN).

Charles Kennedy for PM! Seriously. Lib-Dems are way better than Labour.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Friday again!

2005-09-23T11:18:00.000+01:00

It's Friday. It's my study period. And thanks to what happened in English Lit. we have homework! See, the teacher left the room for so-say five minutes, but when fifteen minutes had gone by and we were growing weary of the 1970's production of King Lear up on the tele, we put on Damon's drama presentation instead, which was probably much more productive as we could not take any more of Robert Lindsay's Edmond. (It was a great performance but I couldn't shake Harper from My Family out of my head and kinda downgraded the whole Edmond character).

Anyway, the teacher came back a full forty-five minutes later to discover us watching this and not Lear, but fortunately isn't one to wig out. Tara took it upon herself to get the blame - something which she shouldn't have done! - and now has to do a five minute presentation to the class on Monday, which is when the homework is due in. We have to totally analyse King Lear's journey through Act One, which I'll go do in a sec.

Couldn't find Mary-Anne or Paul at breaktime as is raining outside (damn inconsiderate rain) and so spent breaktime in the Common Room, a place I am coming to hate more and more over the weeks. It's loud, it's hot, it's stuffy and it's totally unbearable. You feel like everyone's watching you. Paul can't come to the cinema tomorrow, which is a pain, but me and Mary-Anne are going to go anyway to see "40 Year-Old Virgin" and talk about shounen-ai, and maybe go shopping afterwards. It sounds very cool!! ^^;;.

Ow >.- Head hurts and don't know why. Was possibly all the laughing we did in English at the presentation. I thought that it was really good but Camellia, who was in it, hates it. But each to their own. I mean, most of the movies I like people think are rubbish and a total waste of time, and yet I look at what they watch and it does absolutly nothing for me (not that it should).

~~Lostoyannaya

The end of an era, no?

2005-09-22T16:33:00.000+01:00

Xan left Sixth Form yesterday to go to Swindon College. It was really weird - we've been through loads together through school and Sixth Form will be the first two years where I know he won't be coming. Strange.

On the upside, have a new friend called Paul! (Did I mention him earlier when he first came?). Very cool dude......wants to do something connected with the stage when he gets outa school...I think he said a choreographer or something. That would be so cool! >.<. Also I have swapped Complimentry Studies (PE) for mentoring! I'm sortin' it all out tomorrow but hopefully I'll be able to lend a hand in year seven classes! (No one else, they scare me).

~~Lostoyannaya

Tuesday Mentoring

2005-09-20T09:08:00.000+01:00

I was really apprehensive about this morning because we were going to mentor the year sevens. But we got a nice group - Emily, Emily, Kelly, Ellis and Daniel (Hah! Memory improving!), and me and Amy got to work together. Poor Xan got a group of three rowdy boys who didn't listen to him at all...it was really, really fun! I want to do it again -_-. I wish we could - perhaps I could help mentor during my Complimentry Studies, instead of doing sport? I'll have to ask. It could contribute towards the Asdan thing. ^^;;. Although I could never be a teacher - the attitude and paperwork they put up with is most alarming and unwelcome.

Where has Amy gone? She's left me stranded in the Learning Support Office! She can't have gone far; her cigarettes are in her bag. Although I think I heard her meet Amanda, so perhaps she's gone for a quickie rollie. (And by that, I mean cigarette).

Had a very bad morning before the mentoring. Well, good and bad. I had a nightmare and was awake since six am, then sliced my finger (literally...I've never bled so much before, even during a nose bleed) and it took me ages to find a plaster. Then I got a card from Pete and Marie congratulating me on my GCSEs (£20 included.....Xmas shopping money, naturally...) and then Dad was in a foul mood for some reason and we had a huge bust-up. All the while Nikkalla was whining at my bloody toast (and I mean bloody as in blood) and the television was blaring. I was glad to get outa the house.

~~Lostoyannaya, for now.

~~Monday?

2005-09-19T12:40:00.000+01:00

I went to write th title of this post and realised it is only Monday -_- I didn't get much sleep last night (I slept the entire time, but the night was just not long enough) and I'm kinda in a dazy, swimmy mood. Not that I want to go swimming...that's the last thing on my mind. Xan isn't here; I went to the doc's in the middle of English, and now it's lunchtime so he proberly (yes, I know that's spelt wrong...I'm in THAT kinda mood) assumes I'm not here.

I also have a study period next, but have nothing to study (I read the rest of King Lear 1:4 in the surgery and so I'm gonna clarfiy my hastily made notes on it, but apart from that I have nothing), and so I am going to research the 1950's England. I've come up with two universes for my characters now - the K-Uni, which is science fiction, and then a kind of Philip-Reeves-Eat-Your-Heart-Out one which basically goes something like this:

London, 1950's style, but with more advanced technology. However, the story-verse will revolve around characters based in the slum community, the girl working as a waitress in a cafe and the man working as a taxi driver, perhaps. Something like that. I want to do a big contrast between the rich and the poor, showing places like the Mirabelle restuarant on Mayfair with the shoddy cafe my character works in. I also need names for them....I wish I had my names dictionaries here ^^;;. I love researching for stories almost as much as I love writing them.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~It's the weekend!

2005-09-16T16:02:00.000+01:00

Boosh For President!!

English today was so good. We started on Act 1 Scene 4, during which time Lear rediscovers Kent, now disguised as Caius, and the Fool becomes Lear's conscience and shadow. It's a very clever and ironic play -_- I look forward to reading the ending. The Spire is also going well....although now for Dean Jocelin, who is in big trouble. The actual Spire is collapsing durring a harrowing lightening storm and the Holy Nail hasn't been installed. Isn't faith hilarious?

We have a new guy in our History class (Paul) which brings our total population up to 11, and have just learned that the only skill we need to acquire for the exam is to write a perfect paragraph, which I can half-way-do. ^^;;.

Ahh, it's the weekend. That means multiple lie-ins and naps and homework and the watching of the television and sleeping. (Notice that sentence has three references to sleep). On the homework front.....finishing The Spire, reading 1:4 of Lear, essay on Why We Need Law and Activity 2 on the sheet Eames gave us >.<. Oh well. Can finish that all tonight and tomorrow afternoon, XD. Also have hospital.

~~Lostoyannaya

~~Thursday

2005-09-15T12:23:00.000+01:00

It's Thursday. It's nearly the weekend, at last! It seems like this week has lasted forever....but at least the weather is starting to cool down. Seriously, on Tuesday I was so hot that I was even hot in Costcutters with all the fridges turned on! XD. It's lunchtime right now and there's General Studies next and I really don't want to go -_- It's so boring. All we ever do is tests and if it's maths I get it all wrong, and even if it's English it's dull.

The Spire is getting really interesting. We just found out that Pangall was sacrificed in a Pagan festival and Goody has just died from giving birth to Roger's love child. And they talk about the good ol' days.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. It was raining this morning.

Insanity

2005-09-14T11:17:00.000+01:00

Sometimes you just have to think that the world has gone mad, and not because there are lots of insane people out there, but because there aren't. (Does that make any sense?). No, the reason I think the world is mad is because of the parallel in the library right now. The main area is filled to the brim with year eights who are all running around like they're crazy and acting as though the quietest place in the world should be a child's playground, and yet here in the Sixth Form Study Room - which is so fabled for it's loudness and general messing-about-abilities - is silent as the grave with only myself and one other person in here. It's crazy, it really is. And through the windows you can hear all of the small kids outside running around and screaming, and it's quite disturbing. It's like a screen capture I took last night of someone running - running itself looks perfectly natural until you catch one position of it in a freeze frame. Suddenly it looks most bizare and creepy - someone lurching to one side without falling.

I appear to be in quite a reflective mood today (it's breaktime by the way, mom). All through English I was really visualising what was going on in The Spire, which was very spooky - like when I had a slight fever a few years ago and felt as though I was in the middle of the Blitz in London and yet I knew and could see that I was in my bedroom at home. I also had a very good idea for a short story which I scribbled down in our little five minute break between double lessons, so I'm going to try to write that up sometime.

Break has just been moved into a Study period, and I have nothing to study, as such. I'm going to try to read some more of The Spire (but lots of people are coming into the room and so I think I might go out into the main library), or maybe write some more of my short story idea. -_- I know that lots of people think I'm chock-a-full 'o' air, keep on saying that I'm gunna write this and write that and write everything, but I really am. Seriously. I just need some time to breathe and think, and that's the good thing about a library - sitting in a room full of knowledge can help so much. I wish we had a library at home!

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. It's now lunchtime and, joy!!! Me, Boris and Boris get to be the Marxist revolutionary group in History! (Xan has just said, "The Marx Brothers!", but this is not what I meant...). It's great. I know loads about Lenin and Plekhanov and the Bolsheveik/Mensheveik divide in the SD party! I was reading all about it in Robert Service's "A History of Modern Russia". (Yes, ok, I'm boring. -_-). (Xan has just compared the Social Democrat Party -IE the communists - to Sweatdrop Studios. I'm scared, inc.). -_- Narrow minded. Mind you, I used to think that my parents owned Toys R Us because of the R Us, so maybe he got it from me.

PPS. Off to find out what the Hammer and Sickle actually looked like.

PPPS. I have changed the title of Rainshine to "A Fistfull of Roses" because.....I feel very strange today -_-. ^^;;. I think it sounds better anyway and goes with my new, weirdly mature personality.

Tuesday Again

2005-09-13T13:25:00.000+01:00

I can't believe that we've been at school for a week now. It seems like no time at all has passed - that's really sad, in a way. Me and Denji were talking about it - how one minute we were year eights meeting for the first time in science class and talking about Anime, and the next saying goodbye to each other once and for all in school time on May 13th. It's really, really depressing - your childhood is supposed to be the best time of your life and yet you're forced to spend most of it at school....^^;;. Oh well. At least we're not allowed to work down the coal mines anymore...that would just be horrible.

Started a character/story diary that I hope to keep up in which I'm going to talk about my characters and which stories inspired them (IE, Valeskah was originally created when I was into Star Trek big time, but back then her name was Kate. It got changed when I started getting into Russian history after watching K-19: The Widowmaker). I started it last night whilst watching a repeat of "Will and Grace". I have a study period next which I'm gonna used to really start it properly, though, because I don't have anything to study.

And now I am going to look for some pictures.

~~Lostoyannaya

Saturday~~

2005-09-10T18:02:00.000+01:00

~~Work was fun today, which was good because I was really worried about going. I don't know why. Perhaps I am weird. -_- My apologies--I've been listenin' to "Anything But Ordinary" by A. Lavine since I got home from le hopital.

Going out with Xan and his family tonight for dinner at Beefeaters. I really don't like the name of the place, but mom assures me the food is good, so. I have got to go for something small and inexpensive, as well. Am wearing my black skirt, black boots, black dragon top and long black coat as stolen from mentioned parent. Perhaps I will look like a Goth in an eatery, perhaps I shall not.

Shoutbox added...don't know if works.

~~Lostoyannaya

Friday~~

2005-09-09T13:21:00.000+01:00

~~Yes, there's been a change of template again. I think it better suits the Momiji display picture for my profile. The new quote under "Rainshine" came from our omnipotant head of year. I kinda like it...it has a ring to it.~~

We have just had a very fascinating lesson - English Langauge - in which we discussed the tonsils and language acquisition (a couple of very interesting seperate topics which somehow revolved themselves into a third subject; why do men have nipples?).

And I now have a free period with Xan and Mary-Anne (she has just leant me Fruba vols. 4-7...AAAH! Momiji Sohma wa totemo kawaii no desu! He has such an agnsty past...*SPOILER* His mother was made to forget him because he was cursed with the zodiac and so turned into a rabbit the moment she cuddled him...and now it's just Momiji with his father......*sobs* that is so cute!! bless his little German heart....although when in vol. 4 they showed you a grown-up piccie of him it just wasn't the same. he has to be eternally young to be eternally cute^^;;).

Okay, enough about Fruba. I am so totally obsessed with it....I even have lots of pictures in my planner from the anime. *_* The chars don't look the same that they do in the comic, however, so I am....going to stop talking about it now.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Sorry, the lunchtime ran out. Right, where was I? (This is a study period but I have nothing to study other than to look up the Tower of Babel on Google and so I am doing this in the background). Actually, Fritz Lang's version of the Tower of Babel was a lot better than the Bible version. This is how it goes:

The Architects (please excuse or ignore my spelling) plan to build the Tower of Babel, which is going to be a magnificant and beautiful Slave workers - the Hands - see it as a Tower of blood and tears, and so see it that way. When the Architects and Slaves try to speak to each other about the Tower, each has a different way of saying it and so they cannot understand each other. Maria, who is the character telling the story in Metropolis, tells the workers that the Hands and the Head need a mediator, which is the Heart (and who is ultimately Joh's son Freder).

The Bible version is very different, and basically tells of men who wish to build a Tower to the heavens to reach God, but God is very annoyed by this and smites them with different languages. Which is a very not nice thing to do. God was very vengeful in the Old Testament but somehow becomes kinder in the New Testement....I'm gettin' distracted by Fruba sites. Off to Tower of Babel.

PPS. Here!

Wednesday and all is well...

2005-09-07T12:52:00.000+01:00

Mary-Anne is back! ^^;;. She was sick yesterday -_- And she has up to Volume Eight of Fruba! GRRRR. I want to see Akito and find out why he has such a grudge against Tohru! (Actually, it's because he has the heart of the curse and he won't live very long and so he's major annoyed...it's so sad but apparently he's very evil and fluff. An evil bishounen?).

Law and History are going v. good, as well as English Language (which is tres hard...we're arguing about whether or not babies learn to laugh from their parents), and I can't wait until Gunstone's English Lit. King Lear is such a good play - it's the best one Shakespeare has ever written ~~ and so full of emotion and everything! I'm inspired enough to re-write Glass Hearts, my shounen-ai.

Torrentspy.com ~~ remember!

~~Lostoyannaya

Tuesday At School~~

2005-09-06T12:56:00.000+01:00

Well, school is still okay...apart from this General Studies thing. We did a maths quiz in it this morning (I DID NOT ask to do maths when I entered Sixth Form) and I got the equivilent of an F....a fail, basically. It was so stupid. I mean, we get Mr. Shephard as a teacher and he's awesome, but apart from that it's a really silly idea and I think it's going to put people off coming back next year.

This and the new PE CS thing. We start it tomorrow...I'm so glad I can't do it in this heat because of my op.

We have started William Golding's "The Spire" in English and looks to be funky cool...it's about Dean Jocelin who wants to build a spire ontop of a catherdral that has no foundations. Also, it has a lot to do with society and women (aparently), so expect plentiful feministic rants on here. We have to read it once before next week, no problem for me. Reading for homework? A dream come true. I really missed the time in year seven when we had reading lessons. Why can't we have that now? Why can't we read our own books? -_- We get to read our own texts in English Language, but this is much besides the point.

I start work again tonight. It's a little nerve racking because I may have to quit, and that's something I don't want to do. I enjoy my job, and talking to the customers, but I CAN'T do it for more than two days a week. With all the homework we're getting it would be tres impossible.

^^. Can't wait for history at the end of the day. We're starting the Russian Revolution....-_- Yes! I love Russian History. It's so cool..........especially K-19. God, I could watch that film forever for Edel and Casper......well, that's not their real names but you get the point (and if you're Denji and Bex you'll get it even more, XD!).

^^;;. Welllll...I've got to go back to English. We're on Middle Lunch and we need to read some more of The Spire. I'm gonna love it, I think. It's very g.

~~Lostoyannaya

At school...

2005-09-05T12:29:00.000+01:00

We are on our second day of school, it is lunchtime, and me and Will are soaking up the enjoyments of the sixth-form only area in the library. We have our own computers and desks and privacy -- it is nice and quiet. The common room is really noisy as they have the stereo on the whole time, but in here all you can hear are the computer fans and they are keeping us cool.

History is really cool. We're doing the rise of Mussolini with Mr. Arthur, and Marxism and the Russian Revolution with Mrs. Viner. I love the IDEA of Marxism...that and I actually know what it's about...but in practise it totally sucks. I mean, in practise the idea that everyone would get what they deserved...but in reality it's like K-19 where everything is supposed to be equal but isn't.

English Lit. is neat too. We're doing King Lear with Mr. Gunstone, and he's so passionate about English that it's scary, but it's also kind-of refreshing. I think King Lear is actually a really neat play because it touches on all aspects of life, and you get to see with what total stupidity a man's mind works, because the play is basically saying that women are manipulative (with the exception of Cordelia) and men will fall for their tricks.

With Miss Martin (English Lit.) we are going to be doing a "modern novel" (could be anything past 1917) and we have her lesson tomorrow. We have English Language later today, and it's our first lesson so we don't know who will be teaching us. It looks to be interesting though.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Denji and Bex -- have a nice day at college! And happy birthday to Xan!! (Sorry I forgot your present -_-...;_;).

PPS. Still going to surgery. Boring.

Answering machines.....

2005-08-31T12:52:00.000+01:00

I hate answering machines! Just went to apply for the EMA (Education Maintenence Allowance) and you have to leave your details on an answering machine for an operater to call you back or for them to just send you a pack. Grrr.

School begins Friday and I am so nervous. Sixth Form life is going to be such a change from the norm -- if you have a free period you can go home, and sometimes you only have three lessons a day rather than five. In a way I suppose it's gonna be brill but in another way I feel like time is passin' by too quickly and we're growin' up way too fast. Xan is 17 next Monday, and I am next year.

~~Lostoyannaya

GCSE Results

2005-08-25T12:47:00.000+01:00

English: A
English Lit: A
History: A
German: B
Maths: B
Geography: C
Science: C
Science 2: C
ICT: D
Textiles: D

Ooh, it's been a good day.

~~Lostoyannaya

Urgh....

2005-08-23T11:02:00.000+01:00

Now I remember what it was like to have the abcess last time! To the doctors every day to get it packed and...blah blah blah. I'm fed-up of bitching. I'm listening to Avril Lavine and relaxing. Last night we watched Miss Congeniality 2 and A Series Of Unfortunate Events, and both of them rocked and have put me in a weird mood.

~~Lostoyannaya

Ahh~~

2005-08-15T14:37:00.000+01:00

Life is kinda boring right now. All I am seeing is the hospital, most of Swindon, and my house. -_- Good news today, though! Do not have to have Entonox anymore to have my dressings changed, and so I can have them done at the surgery, and so I can go to Borders on Thursday! I am going to splurge -_-.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Born In The USA rox!

Hospital

2005-08-09T18:30:00.000+01:00

Have just been in hospital for the last three days. Got back yesterday at about five pm. -_- The new hospital is very nice, but it's so difficult to sleep, especially with all the babies crying and the fact the lights do not go out at all all night...ahh........major event in Main Novel......main char dies, I've decided so. ;_; She will be sorely missed by me........<-- I'm talking about her like she's a real person, XD!

Will not be going to the NEC, because of the hospital thing. Am mildly upset...but this DOES mean I will be able to order ST: S3 on DVD, XD!!!! I can't wait, XD!!!

~~Lostoyannaya

Hot

2005-08-01T15:49:00.000+01:00

Great, it's hot again -_- I don't believe it! It looked like it was going to rain yesterday and clear the air, and now it's hot again! ARGH! I hate summer -_- And they tell us Global Warming doesn't exist........

~~Lostoyannaya

Where am I?

2005-07-31T09:10:00.000+01:00

Urgh. I worked Friday, Saturday and am working today in Costcutters -_-. It gets so busy there! But at least will have some more money for the NEC thing we're going to!! That's only about two weeks away now...crap! I'm so nervous, XD.

I've started building that website I thought I'd better get around to soon, and HTML is tres amusant once you've figured out how to use it properly. It's common sense, when you think about it. -_-.

Got Star Trek S2 on DVD with meh payslip, so all is good. Especially screen captures and subtitles, and me finally being able to put all of my videos back in my wardrobe. I can see why DVDs are getting so popular all of a sudden...XD.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Landon kicks @$$. "The Apple", [TOS]. She's the only Yeoman who can defend herself, ne?

Life is good~~

2005-07-28T15:33:00.000+01:00

Si, senior, life is tres good. And for good reason, too! Nikkalla is the sweetest dog ever (even though she tries to eat you) and Star Trek is a wonderful means of escapism, and I'm finally building my own webpage (thanks for the help on that, Xan! XD).

~~Lostoyannaya

Nikkalla

2005-07-25T09:37:00.000+01:00

Nikkalla...is...so...beautiful!!! She's such a shy and sweet dog...yet, unlike Flaps, she's constantly seeking affection^^. (And, yet, like Flaps she is also constantly seeking food!). She was abandoned along with four other dogs, and these four other dogs were found a week before she was. She's definately probably part-greyhound, and she's really skinny! But so sweet nonetheless...^^XD.

Check Sunfall for pictures!

She hasn't gotten used to her name yet...we have to say "Nikkalla" as many times as we can in the same sentence for her to finally get used to it, methinks....but she's so sweet and cute anyway! (She needs a bath though, XD, but we're going to wait until she's a bit more confident, ne!).

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. FWAAA! She's so cute! It's so nice having a dog in the house again again!

OMG!!!!!!!

2005-07-24T11:05:00.000+01:00

Mom just called...SHE HAS NIKELLA IN THE CAR WITH HER RIGHT NOW!! They let her have her! Oh. My. God. I'm. So. Excited.!!!! It's going to take them a while to get home...but they might be home before I go to work! Wouldn't that be cool???

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. MWAAA! Current mood: Excited!

Overhaul~~

2005-07-24T09:53:00.000+01:00

Yeees...Rainshine has had an overall (IE. the new template). It all started back on the old template when I instered a hyperlink that made my sidebar fall to the end of the screen. I then decided that maybe if I loaded up a new template it would work, and fell in love with this one. Isn't it nice and blue? And suits the name, too^^. I'm going to put some of my quotes back in the sidebar, though....the minute I remember where to put them, XD.

Mum left at 8:15 to travel up to Buckinghamshire to look at a dog...her name's Nikella and she's a cross-Saluki (but we don't know what she's crossed with), a rescue dog who needs a quiet home. We don't know if they'll let us have her, though, because we're in Wiltshire. -_-

Bwaa! The Saturday shift at CC sure is hard! The number of people who bought lottery tickets or Lucky Dips or both yesterday was appalling! Just because it was a rollover...I reckon I sold well over one hundred, and some people were spending upwards of £10 on tickets! Did it ever occur to them that if they saved their money they would be rich by the end of the year?

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Quote of the Day: "Flowers are poor people's jewelery" ~~ Karen, 'Will and Grace'. Sadly true, ne?

Desert Asteroids!

2005-07-21T20:29:00.000+01:00

Star Trek.com sent out this thing where you had to nominate ten episodes that you would take with you to an asteroid to watch...and MINE WAS THE FIRST ENTRY! I don't believe it! That's so cool! ^^;;;;. Ahh~~I do like Star Trek! But...

...James Doohn's died...poor guy ;_; he was very good as Scotty...very funny. It's sad, but I suppose it happens to all of us at some time -_-

~~Lostoyannaya

Thursday

2005-07-21T08:39:00.000+01:00

I seem to be having some very weird and vivid dreams at the moment. Last night's dream featured me watching Star Trek on DVD (again...weird), and then being simultaneously in school and being told off by a teacher who never existed for bringing my laptop into school -_- Perhaps I am going insane.

Ahh~~I love the instrumental "King of Pride Rock" by Hans Zimmer. V. emotional and story-inspiring, as is most of his music. He's a kick-ass composer, seriously.

Le gasp! <-- My new saying, it would seem. I have just updated Sunfall. I took some pictures of the lake and all the greenery and stuff on the way to the lake...AAAAAH! I listened to "Back to Bedlam" the entire time I and now I just have all those beautiful songs whirling around my head~~James Blunt is so talented, ne?

Have discovered several new words. Was listening to "Cry Little Sister" by Gerad Mcmann and now like the word "Shangrila", which was first mentioned in a book called "Lost Horizon" (another fact from Wikipedia), and is now used literally to mean a lost paradise. I can so mean what "Cry Little Sister" meant. There was another word...oh, yeah, le gasp!, but I already mentioned that.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Post came, no encyclopaedia. Am considering hiring a hitman or similar >.> Or possibly warbling. <-- Just saw this word on an FMV parody. Heh heh. Warbling.

PPS. I hereby declare this day - Thursday 21st July" - as officially crap. Neither me nor dad are having a good day - his computer's just died and his Amiga keeps freezing up. Also has become very hot for no reason, which is good because I got some great pictures of the lake and bad because it is hot.

Hmm~~

2005-07-20T16:19:00.000+01:00

Just ordered ST: TOS S2 on DVD from Amazon~~good price, too. Go there if you want it!

"I am not programmed to respond in that area". Heh heh. Gonna watch that one first.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Random is good.

PPS. We might be getting Nikella. Might. Very big might. *Sigh*. Mom and Jose are going up on Sunday to have a look at her ~_~ I can't go because of work! -_- Ahhh well.

Mwa...HAHAAHA, etc, etc.

2005-07-20T11:29:00.000+01:00

*Sigh*, I love FMV so much...especially this quote:

Kirk: I see, I see...well I'll introduce my blatant disrespect for all of you, and then Spock can introduce parties to come over for shore leave. Howzat?
Baris: Unacceptable.
Kirk: Excellent.

~~ From "Troubles with Tribbles".

~~Lostoyannaya

Job

2005-07-17T19:36:00.000+01:00

I've been offered a Saturday shift at Costcutters too now^^. I'm gonna take it. 9am - 1pm.

~~Lostoyannaya

Sunday~~

2005-07-17T09:51:00.001+01:00

Urgh. Yesterday it cooled down a little bit, and today it's baking. I hate summer time...and I've had enough of it...can we have winter now?

But I have work later, so all is good. It's really cold in Costcutters, which is good because then I don't get too hot (because it's cold...duh...), and as well today I'm cleaning out the freezers, possibly with or without Carol, so I'll be occupied and coolish. And I'm getting my first paycheck today, XD! My first step towards the tv memorabilia or saving up for the Star Trek boxset...hmm. Should check Ebay about that. Damnit - the one we were watching ended last night...but there is another one we are watching, so.

~~Later~~Finally got the sidebar full of quotes. Is now full top-to-bottom^^. Should I do the same on Sunfall? Prolly not. But I'm off to edit that now.

~~Lostoyannaya

PS. Still miss Xan -_- I wonder when those two weeks are up? Let me see...crap. It's only been a week. He left last Sunday...;_; I have to wait 'till this Sunday before he comes back! Nani!

Some critics...

2005-07-16T20:51:00.000+01:00

We just sat down and watched "Snatch". It's a great film, really kicks ass, and yet I remember once when the Radio Times rated it they only gave it three stars, and yet they gave The Royal Tenembaums five with a box...apart from Ben Stiller, I can't remember anything good about that film. And Owen Wilson's acting was ruined when we watched the first fifteen minutes of the completely ruined "Starsky and Hutch".

~~Lostoyannaya

Sister-Blog

2005-07-16T15:57:00.000+01:00

I knew you could have more than one Blog under your username *smacks head*. Anywaaaaay...

Sunfall is Rainshine's Sister-Blog, and is where I'll be posting all my pictures from now on, which means the pictures I have posted here will go elsewhere.

As with Rainshine, Sunfall allows annonymous comments as well as User-comments^^.

~~Lostoyannaya

Ah, jeez...

2005-07-16T09:27:00.000+01:00

It's Harry Potter time again...at seven thirty I ran to the door when the doorbell came, expecting him to be holding a big rectangular package that would be a Star Trek Encyclopaedia...fully forgetting it's HP Day....and it was Harry Potter. XD. I felt like such an idiot.

Sigh~~oh well. It's a little cooler today...or it could just be the top I'm wearing...and also it's a nice day, and the rabbits are out in their run and Algie is eating everything in sight, Freefall is vegitating and Indie is glaring. I wish I could be a rabbit sometimes...their lives are so simple and meaningless. Why can't human lives be simple and meaningless? Why do we have to be concerned with politics and money and other people's opinions of us and our clothes and hair and teeth and...although, if I was a rabbit I wouldn't be able to read, and that would suck.

I'm now going for daily walks by myself listening to music, and it's so relaxing~~I walk down the path to the lake, and yesterday it was so beautiful that today I am going to take my camera and take lots of pictures, then sit down and look at them when I get home (as an excuse for sitting down, some might say...)

Denji is so depressed and I don't know what to do...she's hardly on MSN anymore...;_; but ah well. I am seeing her on Monday, so all is not lost. And Xan's still away...>.> in France. I hope he's having a nice time with this weather and all~~and enjoying himself. Xan hardly ever enjoys himself anymore, you know? Even when he's with our gang sometimes he looks a little distant. I mean, for the "tortured creative poet" inside of him that's good, but for the "I need some help from my friends" side of him, that's bad...I hope he gets back soon. I miss him...;_; he's my boy-best-friend, of course (and, yes, Jessica, you're my girl-best-friend XD) and it's been so long since I haven't seen him for this long, if you know what I mean. I can't even text him~~*sigh*.

~~Lostoyannaya

Fallen On A Broken Rose

Sunday :: Discontinued?

Tell Me Lies, Tell Me Sweet Little Lies...

Sunday :: What??

Harrowing Experience...

Sunday :: Yawn...

Thursday :: Exam Results!

Wednesday :: WIRELESS IS BACK!

Saturday :: Naah! CSI!!

Friday :: Oscar Wilde

Thursday :: Oops!

Saturday :: Boosh Live!

Friday :: Feng-Shui

Sunday::Smut? Moi?

Friday::Blue

Monday::School

Saturday::Big News!

Thursday::Weekend! Nearly...

Wednesday::Half Day!!

Sunday::Exhasted...

Saturday::The Day Before Sunday

Thursday::Urgh

Wednesday::Boredom

Wednesday::I Feel Weird

I'm making this post...wirelessly!

What's this? Wireless?

5 Days 2 Go!

Oh yes, let's hear it for the NHS~~

Thursday, glorious Thursday...anti-climax again~~

Early Escape~~

~~KI? Monday? Politics and drama? And where is Paulica?

~~Saturday

~~Friday, 16 Days to Go!~~

~~Thursday~~

Wednesday, *yawn*.

~~Tuesday? Next Friday? December?

~~New MP3 Player, new music, new WOUND HEALING!

NMRC

~~A Fistful of Thorns

~~Um...it's Friday.~~CHILDREN IN NEED NO-GO!

~~A la l'école

~~KI? Big changes ahead...

~~Tuesday, all's normal

~~First day back, anti-climactic

~~Headaches and bad nights~~

~~Twins visit? GET!

~~Justice?

~~Shock, shock, horror, horror!

~~Last Day? -- Anticlimax

~~One day left, mwahaha!

~~National Geographic, anyone?

~~Tuesday, three days 'till half term

~~7 Things thing

~~Monday, the Lear and the dragon

~~Shakespeare?

~~OSTs...and Delta Lady...

~~Wednesday Re: Thursday

~~No ambition? ~~Tuesday

~~Monday

~~Thursday

~~Back at School

~~Saturday

~~Student?

Miss American Pie~~

~~Wednesday

~~Tuesday

~~Monday

~~Friday again!

The end of an era, no?

Tuesday Mentoring

~~Monday?

~~It's the weekend!

~~Thursday

Insanity

~~Tuesday Again~~

Saturday~~

Friday~~

Wednesday and all is well...

Tuesday At School~~

At school...

Friday, 16 Days to Go!

Thursday

Wednesday, yawn.

Um...it's Friday.CHILDREN IN NEED NO-GO!

Headaches and bad nights

No ambition? Tuesday

Tuesday Again

Hospital

Hot